Some Thoughts from Advisor Ryan

The Night Susie Died

The Night Susie Died  (Written by Advisor Ryan)

Grandma Susie, I really miss you

Why was it your time to go?

You were another mom to me, you watched me grow

I sit here with tears in my eyes

And I’m crying, I cry, I cry

How I long just to hear your voice

Even if you yell at me and say Ryan, stop making noise

No matter how much time passes by

The thoughts of you make me both smile and cry

I really need you to tell me everything will be alright

You were just so special to me, you gave me so much insight

I wouldn’t be who I am today, without you

I wish I could see you and show you everything that I do

I just want to hear you say you’re proud of me

I want to know what you think of me

Oh, this pain is such a struggle

I wish I could have made it there before you went to heaven

I am so sorry Grandma, I really am

You were so sick and I was scared to see you

I was scared that in the moment I come, you would die

But it happened anyway, I couldn’t stop it, I wish I would have tried

I feel so alone without you

No matter how many people come into my life, no one replaces you

You know I love you, I really do

I wish I just had one minute, one second, one moment, to tell you, I love you

That moment is gone forever, at least in this life

I am so sorry, I missed that night

I was told that you asked to see me, before you died

I couldn’t make it there Grandma, I tried, I tried

And now, this is a permanent regret

I will always miss you, Grandma Susie, I will always miss you