Dissecting Life

I have broken these cruel chains that bound me to my past existence, and because of that, I know how to help you through it.

Contents

Full Story Of Abuse
How This Has Haunted My Life
Step By Step Replay

Recent Volumes

Volume I
Volume II
Volume III
Volume IV

How This Has Haunted My Life

Here are some of the most negative, and positive, affects of what my personal dealings with abuse taught me from my early childhood.  These are just the main lessons that I've learned.  There are much deeper aspects as well.

Negative And Positive Effects

1. NEGATIVE:  Had to learn how to speak up about anything important to me.  For example, my foster mom had to really work very hard at making me so mad that I finally said something.  From that point on, I was no longer so meek.
2. POSITIVE:  I was rescued by a wonderful family, whom I still love very, very much, who helped me to see what a true functional family was really meant to feel like.  Thus showing me the other side I was so jealous of with others with family structure.
3. NEGATIVE:  Let people push and shove me around in life, rather than standing up for myself, and fighting for what was most important.
4. POSITIVE:  I broke the chains and I use no physical abuse when it comes to my children.  I know I would never, ever hurt them like I had been hurt by those I was supposed to rely on.  Because of this, I am a much better person, and understand more deeply the impacts of being physical as forms of punishment.
5. NEGATIVE:  Have been told there's no way I'm capable of loving anyone because of what I experienced, when I know I fully and completely love my family.
6. POSITIVE:  Rather than let this situation control me, I have learned to harness it's teaching abilities to help others through painful situations involving abuse.  I have turned a negative situation into something positive, simply through teaching.
7. NEGATIVE:  Have had so many hangups with not wanting to be abusive, I have completely taken the other route, and have a hard time adminstering punishments.
8. POSITIVE:  I discovered I had a spiritual gift during this time, as my own mind told me the outcome, and it came true right down to a T.  I will share that with you in the full story of the beginning timeline of this lesson.
9. NEGATIVE:  Made me disconnect from anyone involved in life that was supposed to be special.
10. POSITIVE:  I've learned to look beyond the situation as to an area of why it happened, thus being able to forgive those who have trespassed against me.  This is a major milestone.

The biggest lesson of all that I learned was that it's okay to be mad.  It's okay to be angry about what happened, and not making up excuses because of things you have ingested that caused this.  As I was once told, and it is absolutely correct, those that do wrong to you, even if mental problems, know what they are doing is wrong.