Lost Job, Lost Love, Now What?
As many across the world lose jobs, homes and loved ones, I feel moved to share a true and personal story with you.
9 years ago I leased and operated a Horse Training and Boarding facility. I quickly built the business to full capacity and was doing what I dreamed of doing. I had a relationship, lived on the property and felt like I was on top of the world. I woke up at 5am every day to feed and check horses. After morning feeding, I rode the horses in full training and tended to the various chores always needing attention.
Five years prior to running the facility, I began having recurring dreams where a Spirit Guide would tell me I was moving to Colorado. I lived in San Diego and had no desire to move to a cold, mountain climate. As the dreams continued I began to talk to the guide telling him I was not moving. I pushed for what I wanted and created a life I was happy with. During the same time I had a recurring dream of a child. A little boy named "Joshua" would visit me. Joshua communicated through his eyes. Steel gray eyes pierced me and he would consistently call me "Mom". I laughed at him, told him repeatedly I am not your Mother but I can help you find her. He would not budge but would appear over and over in my dreams stating I was him Mother. I had a child, was not wanting to be a mother to a second child. I had been single and raising my daughter for several years and had no desire to add to my responsibilities.
Back at the ranch, I was engaged to a man that was a recovered alcoholic. We got along well, I helped him with his business and he helped with what he could on the ranch. Everything was great until he relapsed. In the course of a couple of months he spent thousands of dollars, disappeared for weeks on end. His family somehow blamed me for his relapse. They also believed he was giving me all his money. I had sold my boat and financed my Training business from the equity. As his alcoholism progressed, he was sent to treatment. Somehow his sister pretended to be me and had my water and electricity at the ranch turned off. All sorts of mayhem broke out as you can imagine. My fears soared as I restored utilities and water. It quickly became apparent the family would continue to sabatoge me as I received threats.
Within a three day period so much happened. My bank account was emptied and I was left with no communication with my boyfriend. I was broke, living on the property at the facility and had 7 horses to care for of my own along with over 40 boarded horses. I cried, stressed, prayed and generally freaked out.
I began having dreams, and the voice of Spirit came through one day while I sat in my office. Spirit asked me in a voice that seemed "out loud", "Are you ready to move to Colorado"? I yelled, "What"? "Are you kidding me"? Then the voice spoke more gently and said, "It's time to move". I was terrified, angry and flabbergasted. After all my resisting, I finally agreed there was no other way. I sold 5 of my horses, let the boarders know I had to go and quickly dispersed of what I could to pay the bills. In the end, I paid off the bills and had a total of $1800 to my name.
It took 48 hours to close the ranch, put my things in storage and figure out where I was to go. A whirlwind of activity ensued. Spirit directed me to go on a Spiritual journey for 5 days and promised to show me where I was to end up. After 3 days in Sedona, AZ I drove a loop of Colorado and returned to San Diego. I brought home a map and Spirit directed me to the Four Corners Area of Colorado and said "You will move here".
I had no income, no home and had to feed myself, my daughter, 2 horses and a dog. I had no idea where I would end up, how I would earn a living and how I would survive in a place I knew no one. Within 3 phone calls, I rented the mobile home on the property I own now. The owner rented it to me over the phone, sight unseen, no credit check, no deposit. From there everything fell into place.
I prayed vehemently and asked to have every step guided. Within 3 days I moved into my new home with my daughter, dog and horses. Once I settled in, I balanced my checkbook and began freaking out at the fact that I had exactly 2 months of rent, food and bill money. Quickly Spirit directed me to do readings full time and train horses on the side. Within two weeks I was earning more then before. As I continued to let Spirit guide me, I was able to purchase my home.
Since that very traumatic time, I've bought my property, built a new house, had a baby and built a successful business. My daughter who is now 7 turned out to be "Joshua". She was born with Steel Grey eyes that turned brown when she was 6 months old. Native Americans tell me thats a sign of being a healer and seer.
Had I not yielded to Spirit when my life came crashing down, I may have had a much harder time of it. Instead, I have been blessed abundantly and repeatedly.
If you are facing circumstances that are similar, pray, meditate and ask for guidance. Sometimes even the darkest of trials are meant to bring us to a place of abundance. We struggle, resist and make things harder on ourselves. Pay attention to your dreams, give a listen to your intuition. If you still don't know what to make of your circumstances, call me and I'll shed some light from Spirit.
May all your dreams become your reality!!
Bernadette Dickinson
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