RESTLESS

So I awake on a Cloudy night,
Alone, yet not alone,
Drifting it seems, To places I have gone and I have been.
Sometimes in my head, and sometimes in my soul.
But always with you, never alone.
Now.... i am forlorn- for you have gone.

Without a single word, or a heartfelt goodbye.
I bash my head, while I lie in bed.
Wondering... wondering why.
For I simply don't know WHY !!!!!!

No one to hear me cry...
What do they care !.. any way if i simply die.
they are all happy, toodling along with their merry life.
While deep alone in my soul. I am alone, and I know why.
 
For you have gone.

As then the Sun did dawn,
I will rise from my own cloudy storm,
and in the rays of another day I will seek to find.
Some hope to get by,
I will, I will,
I must : For within me the Love

WILL NEVER DIE.
And you can never hurt me with your stupid little lie.
Dear Friends,

 This poem was influenced by some of the grief that I have shared with my own clients. and some that I have carried within at a younger age. It is tough to tell someone that his or her love has gone away and they must move on. I say it with love. and compassion. For I understand their pain.

However it is important to understand  the experiencing of " The Feelings of Love" - as being what drives our spirit to wonderment and inner awareness that is beyond human understanding. Even when a lover is gone- the feelings derived from the memory and the true wonderment of it all will still remain.
One could look at this with pain or with a outlook of experience. So sometimes we must recognize that it is NOT the PERSON that we need to embrace, but the true experience of that particular union. In most cases this will take a little time . For Time softens the pain and helps us to feel- from a distance. Almost as if we were viewing our own experiences from anther's view point. At any event it gives it a new perspective on things.

The most important thing is to be able to let go. Or else we will continue to spiral in the same place churning up our own pain. Love should NOT be hurtful. If it is continuously so then there is something a miss. If love breaks us apart from within then maybe it is time to let go. None of us want to hear that. But if you have your hands full of hurt then how can you embrace true love? that can surely pass you by. Think about that....

Lost Love should never be regretted. Remember, it is we who own the feelings of Love. We have earned that great experience. So for that we must be thankful. For it is said that the most growing experience is for those who are not afraid to love. and to love unconditionally. Remember again . To embrace the experience. This will help us to be wiser, and not look at life with pain and bitterness.

Sure, we may be sad about what we have lost and we may desire to have more of it. But if you were to say. " yes I want that love, but I want a better love" sometimes we have to be selfish. See what you are willing to offer to your lover. and see if what he or she has to offer to you is the same. Sometimes this is hard when you are already emotionally involved. That is why it is always better to get to know where the other person is. use a little bit of rationality. It will never go wrong. 

Life is in essence a great experience of the soul. All things pass away but the spirit lives through it all. So embrace the love that you have had. release the pain, and in that you will  find a better love. Again.


The Summer Of Love


Caress me Oh Love,
Give me more than I have,
For you have made me smile, in my hours of being lonely,
you will make to cry like a babe, and laugh like a child.

In the hours of the morning
As the dew begins to seep,
and the twilight comes a creeping,
To kiss me as I am sleeping.
I will remember you
with fond memories a new.
And sun will shine once more
For your love has simply made me grow.

In a part of my heart you will always be.
for we loved in the sun
And it was fun just you and me.