The month of September-YIKES and OUCH
Well like many of you I have had my rough road here in September, as I sit here thinking back on how it began I really can not say. Outside influences? Maybe, but when you think about how you got to the point you are at in this moment does it really matter, do the how's and why's make you feel better or bring it back--No, you are still here, you are still in that uncomfortable funky spot that lets just say has you by the ass and is not letting you go.
As I was pondering my situation-- you know the whole Libra balance issues. I need balance and I need answers just like you, I need it to make sense. I NEED TO KNOW.......So, I went into meditation lit my candles and burned my incense to clear my thoughts and I asked - No I yelled for clarity and insights which I was promptly answered that evening with a dream.
This dream, as is always the case with me and my dreams was one that was full of information and answers to the who-what-when-where and why questions that I deamnded be answered. I was shown a lion-- a proud lion that was being hunted in the streets by 2 men. This lion was not going down without a fight ---- it lunged as the men ran toward it, I walked by only to see the lion lying on the ground completely skinned with the man over him, he was crying as he looked at me, I stopped and looked at the lion who was breathing heavily, still very much alive but very, very defeated. I began to cry yet I continued up the stairs in front of me.
When I woke up I analyzed this dream and what it boiled down to was me and my pride, I am where I am because as usual I was bold and brave with my pride--Oh hell no am I letting go of my pride for you-- the man I love.. Hmmm what is and was wrong with this picture. My pride prevented me from doing what my gut said was ok to do-- and Pride won. But, who lost......... I did as I am still sitting here wondering yet knowing........I was the lion and I am defeated.
Love & Blessings,
Brenda ---Wiccan Princess