Embrace Change
Written and Inspired by a dear friend who has been walking through their journey and allowed me to walk with them.
You can never take back what has happened to you or what you have done, but we can move forward through and learn..learn deeply.. Our lives carry lots of open show cases some to be seen and some still hidden. Have you ever crossed a street and not looked either way while crossing and made it to the other side by the grace of God. That is how many of us walk through life, we do not pay attention to what we are displaying or what we are doing to ourselves and those that are dear to us.
We are so busy acting, reacting, just busy going about without a second to take a breathe. We can do that day after day without coming up for air. Imagine ever day just rushing through life...no meaning just going...doing...at a speed of light.. Than one day it hits you, where has the time gone? Where has all the precious time gone? Your now looking back and thinking who am I? Where did everyone go and why is the lights so dim? Why am I standing so all alone?
Now your afraid and come to this realization that you have slipped through the hands of time. That everyone has now gone home or moved on to the next phase, and your standing wondering what happened? It hurts. and it hurts alot and you do not know what to do with this pain and sorrow. Your scared and you feel like you never intended life to be like this or better yet, you never meant for anyone to get hurt. You never would of thought that life would turn out like this. You some how feel crushed inside.
Show is over...That stage is clear your next act is about to take place..
You do not understand that yet, for your emotions.. your mind cannot comprehend the trauma that has just gone on. The curtains are rising again and you are not ready to begin once again, you begion to see the audience and there is no one that stands out to you anymore... You want the old actors back, the ones that made you feel comfortable, the ones that you have grown along side with. But... They are gone.. They are finished and they now have different roles or maybe they retired.. You may have never seen them leave or maybe you did and were to busy doing and going about your life and always felt they would be there. But now they are not..Time marched on..
Our life ...consists of many changes that we do not understand at the time that it happens. We are merely a small vessel floating along in a huge sea with sometimes huge waves and sometimes lovely beautiful stillness. When you have shouted and screammed and made your point at the end of the day what is left? When you have laughed till it hurt and cried because you could not stop laughing what is left at the end of that day? The point is we never know how we will feel after every episode of "a life and a day of who we are" but when we start making every second count..big or small they all matter..everything matters more. We don't miss anything.. We start to pay attention to every wind that blows and every song that plays and every breathe we take. We are courageous even when we seem the weakest. We are embracing new parts of ourselves even when we seem to be repeating "old patterns" delicate flowers we have become. We do not miss out on life. We make everything count.
Nothing is taken for granted, no one is taken for granted.. Than we never have to encounter change in a way that causes us to be afraid. We do not have to fear the unknown because we are aware of everything around us. We start to step lighter through life..First steps are the hardest in the midst of the walk..keep walking over the threshhold it will become easier.
NOTE* We cannot run away from anything or anyone, we cannot hide from situations. We have to find ways to come to terms with why "things" bother us so much. It is easy to say, I will stay away from this one or that one because they hurt me, or we do not get along. The real power is finding out why it bothers "us" so much? How we can find the space in us that can find that peace. I am not saying be "abused" or "hurt" but find out why these "people" or "things" hurt us so much? We cannot run from the world, and every pain and hurt. We cannot keep stuffing down "pain" for it is not healthy either. Eventually it surfaces and wants to be explored and released. So do it now, find those people who have hurt you and find out why the pain they caused you hurts you so much? Ask your "self" why you feel so affected by what they did? Why you feel the repercussions? Why you have trauma from what they did? How you can let it go? What you can do to trust again another? and mostly what you can do to forgive_ the person and yourself for having this happen? I find that when we get this section healed and completed_ we are able to _ move on to other parts of us_ that have the joy_ and are able to embrace change with a full heart_
God Bless
Much Love
Donna