Disappointment
I know that many of us are perplexed when we do everything we are taught to do, everything we know to do, and nothing in our lives changes. So many of the calls received deal with that kind of disappointment. For years I had that experience and could not figure it out.
I was blessed to live in an area where there was a huge choice of teachings, teachers, healers and talented Psychics. I did take advantage of that and got totally involved in growing, healing and learning. I learned about the "Law of Attraction," Manifesting techniques, Affirmations, Positive Thinking, all the popular schools of thought, that were available and current. There were cutting edge techniques that were always attractive and stimulating. Nothing stuck. I would be excited and focused and then my life would still fall apart. None of this made any sense and it was a mystery to me.
Later I did find my footing on the Path and although there were bumps along the way, I definitely was able to return home and be still and connect to God/Source and feel the Peace that only comes when we are connected to that blessed Presence. That filled me with a deeper gratitude and a sense of knowing than I had ever experienced before.
But, as with all of life, I still had to continue healing. There was still a part of me that wasn't expressing creativity and joy to their fullest capacity. Then I remembered the inner child work I had done somewhere along the way. That was a natural talent of mine and in my zeal for searching for the Oneness, I had left that "little girl" behind. She was still in there yelling "what about me?" I had to go back in and reclaim her. It wasn't easy because I hadn't given her a voice for a very long time.
Each day became an adventure as she and I reconnected. I found out that she did not understand how I was connected to God. She needed me to explain it and I had to do it in simple terms. Then I found that I could take her by the hand and go to God with her. We were no longer separate and the Oneness was complete. She definitely has her voice back and still drives me crazy. LOL Our connection does not interfere with my communion. I just have to make sure that I act in the role of a loving parent and give that part of me, "the little girl" a voice and include her in my daily earth life experiences. It is a lot of fun. Even when she is sad or unhappy it is okay. She knows that she can count on me to support her. It is dynamic and keeps me present in the moment.
The whole piece has come full circle and connects to the process of "The Law of Attraction." During the time period that the part of me was screaming "what about me" and I ignored it because I was so busy becoming "spiritual," there was a missing link. The flow was not complete. The split created a void and if I was focused on one part and not the other, there was a disconnect. That resulted in feeling like a stranger in a strange land. I didn't feel creative and that is a big part of manifesting. Feeling creative and alive is a prerequisite for experiencing Wholeness and Joy.
Each day is a new beginning and there is no other part of us that has that understanding as well as the small child within. It is where our creativity, joy, and life force lies dormant until we awaken it and give it a voice.
When we trust your hearts, we are led to the specific experiences we need for our Soul's healing and expansion. The heart will lead us to the soul's knowing. If our minds tell us to do something else and we listen, we are in the way. We will have the lesson from the experience either way; we are given the choice of the hard or the soft road. If we listen to and follow our heart, we will either receive a lesson in humility, or a clear knowing that our time in a job or relationship, etc. is done. We will be released from the struggle and the decision will be made without us having to decide. It will happen in Grace and Peace. It is truly magical. Spirit knows exactly what we need and how to show us the truth behind the illusion. One way or another if we stay out of the way, we are given Infinite Understanding and Wisdom.
We can then move onto the next level of experience. I often hear "I want to get on with my life." Being in the Now with our feelings and emotions that is how we get on with our lives. If we are in the Moment allowing the different aspects of ourselves expression on some level, we are in the flow. Our true self knows what we need and gently guides us through the roadmap of our lives. Our work is allowing it to unfold without resistance and releasing the judgment of the experiences. Then our Soul is free to learn what it needs to learn and we are able to "move on and get on with living."
YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT! You are free to hear guidance and allow God's healing to take place. When you are true to yourself, you are in the moment and the Now......There is no other moment. There is no place to go. Having to get somewhere is the effect of the hypnotic trance we were indoctrinated with eons ago.
This is the quantum shift for mankind and we are playing out the last dance of "not letting go."
copyright iriana yoshara 3-09-07