Hey,Dorothy, at least you tried. When you try, there is no 'failure'.
When effort is put into something, this in itself is worthy of
congratulations! At least you saw that there was potential for a good
relationship, and tried to make it work....and trying is good.
Realizing that you're the only one putting the effort into making it
work is also good. This is the point where you say to yourself, "Self, let go of
this". And, in letting go, you surrender. Throw in the towel and call it a
day.
When a relationship
becomes too challenging for your own good, realize it. Why do you want the
drama? Why do you even entertain the notion that it can work if you're trying
to fix something that can't be fixed? Why do you put yourself in a position
that is the equivalent to Ali's punching bag? Would you take a 2x4 and continually bang your head with it? Of course not. So why are you putting in all your beautiful effort into someone that clearly does not deserve it?
Just as time marches
on, so should you. Stop trying to fight it. The accusations that serve as justification for his indiscretions are only going to persist. The way he makes you go "hunh?" isn't going to go away, either. Stop the insanity.
It's
called "Surrender, Dorothy". Take your little red shoes and *click, click* go
home.
Yes, it requires courage to walk away from something that you (think is) love. But, when
you're trying to love someone that doesn't know the first thing about receiving love, it's
a rather silly exercise in futility, don't you agree?
Maybe the Wizard can find you someone with compassion AND a brain next time!
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