I've received a healing gift... :)`
You may have read yesterday's post,
So Mr. Black's Death Wasn't in vain...
Things it made me learn.
As painful as the last week has been, you're going to be as amazed at I am about the healing gift I received yesterday.
Considering Mr. Black's last days, after
separating the guilt I didn't deserve from the guilt I did, letting go
of the first and utilizing the latter, I was already feeling some
better. And I want you to know how much I appreciate you letting me
cry on your shoulders about it. Cause we both know that's unprofessional
as all get out. I've always felt like you were my friends as well as my
clients. But I promise not to make a habit out of that crying around. It's not my style. It was a rare profound moment in my life.
Can you believe I have
good news today?
Yes. I actually do.
It seems too soon. And yet, who am I to say? It's
for sure life is full of surprises. My doctor bought me an 8 week old
dachshund puppy yesterday afternoon. Friday I had gone in and asked for
enough xanex for a week, just to get me through the worst days of
losing Mr. Black. She gave me the prescription that day. And yesterday she
called me to come back up to the office for another medication. And
when I got there, she gave me this precious little black and tan
darling dachshund puppy who snuggles against me exactly the way Mr.
Black always did.
I don't think I could have opened my
heart to her if I was still eaten up with regret. Which I believe I
would have been if I hadn't examined it, utilized it and let it go.
(AFTER learning it's important lessons, not before)
I know this little girl with her sweet puppy breath doesn't replace Mr. Black. I can
see already differences in their personalities. But I've come to
believe no one can snuggle like a dachshund, and she's someone to hold
on to while I recover. My mother was a mostly brilliant woman, but when her little Casper died she refused to ever have another dog. And in that decision - she was an idiot. Because this little girl interrupts tears with chuckles, snuggles and chewing... and every little break from pain - is a break from pain.
We're gonna be alright. I haven't named her yet. But she will
busy me, make me laugh and snuggle with me. I have the greatest doctor
in the world and when you ask her for a prescription, she REALLY knows
exactly what to prescribe.
Thanks everyone for your prayers, I think they were answered at the speed of light.
I know people who grieve and and or feel guilty over the loss of a pet for years. I don't believe that's healthy. Everyone wanted me to do it differently and they might have gotten me to, except for the fact I've been utilizing negative emotions and experiencing the value in it for sixteen years.... so seriously, if you find yourself drowning in grief and guilt some day, you google Mr. Black. You follow the pattern I've laid out. And if there's a healthier way to heal your spirit by all means, share it with me. Cause I'll share that one with everyone too.
And why am I not posting pictures of her immediately?? Because I cannot find my camera today!! I've turned this place upside down so it's probably at my daughter's house. I will find it and add pictures asap. I can tell you this much, most black and tan dogs are black and tan or black and blonde. But this little girl and Mr. Black, they're actually black and a deep mahogany brown. My Doctor had never seen Mr. Black. She had no way of knowing. Amazing. Wonderful. What a gift. What a fantastic gift.
NOTE: Don't let me talk you into rushing to get a dachshund. They're the hardest breed in the world to housebreak. If you're not patient and consistent... you best get one of the many other fabulous dog breeds.
Needing Insight? Answers? Direction?
or check out one of these first:
psychic memories :|: giggle soup :|: photolicious :|: strictly five star psychics
my favorite psychics :||: focus formula :||: heartache relief :||: FREE Minutes!
