~~A FRIEND REFERRED A FRIEND~~
I haven't had alot of possitive inspiration as of late, so it's been awhile since my last blog entry.. please forgive a growing old soul.
but i wanted to share with you this kinda crazy week of enlightment.
i was feelin' kinda down and i was singin' blues to my friend Tina when she said " you need to talk to my friend "Ray". so we did the phone etiquette thing and i called Ray..
She is a very very loving soul.
She helped with a little lesson. that the more i talk to myself the more i grow emotionaly. i have to literally say encouraging things in my mind to allow myself to grow in the spirit.
I am learning that this actual process is difficult...
I am very surprised. I have always counted myself as a person with focused thoughts... but i have begun to realize that my focused thoughts are all about others not about me. intern, i have found myself longing for something that i have been expecting someone, some person to fill. something i can touch. something tangable for years.
So i pose the questions to my own mind.....is it wrong to think of one's self first ? is thinking of one's self first selfish? if i always think of others before myself is this selfsacrafice?
as you and i can tell this staying focused on self is difficult for me.....
and this lesson continues.....
Mama's Quote of the day...: " i dont have over here by my chair....".