I Hear You Calling
I Hear You Calling...
Today I took myself away from the earthly worries and surrenderd. I let go and accepted the day however it's maiden voyage became. For each day is a maiden one... new and with promise. I got to my office, lit my candles and prayed for Gods Grace and Truth.... Yes, Grace and Truth. Of love and direction. I knew the names of my clients before they arrived and asked God for His assistance and what message did he want for them.
She arrived, a bit nervous and sat down. I was also nervous on a human level but knew to let go and trust... I took a deep breath and began our session.... Nothing can compare to God's will and word of hope, love, forgiveness. We spend much of our lives worrying about the little things that we over look the greater good, the blessing. I know, I did the same thing for the past two weeks with my friend. Thru their message from God, I also was reminded.
I see the hurt, their pain and can see the details etched within their hearts, their soul. It is only thru God's Grace I am allowed to see this.... embrace with the angels their wounds and most often, God takes that person back to their childhood.... I understand why He does this. And why we hold onto many of our resentments and pain. Here is an ariticle I wrote the second night I was home in Delaware.... before my friend's problems became my own. I thank God for today and for those I was allowed to see, hold and help.
How does one heal without guidance from either a friend, nature or God? Mankind, The world, or Spirituality, some form of one or all three must be available for the wounded to mend it's broken spirit. What do most people feel hurt by? What are the most basics? I would say the first one would be rejection. Rejection of one's spirit, love and indiviuality.
For being counted as loved and the feeling that one's life matters is I feel the upmost essential ingrediant to a healthy life. Rejection has many faces and turns into resentments because of the need to protect and retreat. It exposes all of our vulnerabilities and forces us to take a deep look into ourselves and our own worth and if we have little to begin with, this can be very painful and often times dibilitating often leading into addictions on many levels.
( addictions in adulthood because of the ways in which we learned to cope from being rejected)
(resentments stemming from rejection- 1, bitterness, 2. not being able to cope. 3. Self-sabotozing)
Not being able to express our emotions, stuffing, shame, anger, rage, hate etc. Often times becauase we didn't have someone to guide us out of the pain, no one we felt we could communicate with openly about our feelings. Feeling shut out. Not mattering.
Rejection opens the doors that allows us to fall into places we wouldn't walk before or be with those we wouldn't have chosen otherwise. Because it depletes the self spirit and the ego mind within the wounded.
Take a look at your lives and I want you to think of a time when you felt rejected. How did that feel for you? How did you cope? Did you shove it under the rug days maybe weeks later to get on with your life? Did you cry and release? Did you reach out to someone for guidance and reassurance?
Ways in which we respond to rejection is important skills to learn in our early years of growth. Did you try to change to make that person like you? Did you move on to another with less value, morals and principles than your own? Did you try to validate your own worth by hanging out with the "wrong" crowd?
Did you shy away from others and become and stay isolated and withdrawn? Taking jobs that didn't challange you or finding a partner that only validated how unworthy you were?
We are suppose to look to our parents and siblings within the family unit for reassurance of how valuable we are but often times this doesn't happen for reasons we all can relate to. Your stories are yours, but we have shared them together. The feeling of not being important, heard, understood.
Not being picked to be on the winning team, not being invited to the party, not being accepted by your peers because you were "differant" all have hurt more deeply than we realize and all make up our self worth very early on and ALL are important.
My son's step mother and I have said to my son, " Your not going to like everyone and everyone isn't going to like you. Though this is true do we just leave the child with that as an acceptable explanation and tune out the child that cries for help when they are being bullied, rallying it up as "kid stuff?"
How many times were you wounded by such events in school and what impact can you honestly say this had upon your adult life? Do you convey the same message to your own child and to your OWN INNER child? We may not like others because of how they live, what they do, how they behave etc, but what about God's unconditonal love for you? What message did Jesus bring into the Christian faith?
Did you just get used to it as being normal and became numb to it all? What message do you bring? But most importantly, what message for YOU do you still hold onto, good and negative.... nine times out of ten you will remember the bad....
Seeing clearly as God see's you, lovable, worthy, countable even when you have NO one that reflects this back to you, know that God does and tries to show you in SO many ways. Reach out and embrace your friend, your co-worker, your neighbor. They suffer secretly as you do.
Treat those as you would wished to be treated.... This is about love. This is about forgivness, this is about healing...
Wind~