So sorry he turned out to be a jerk (you say in your letter that he was 'a jerk'). Unfortunately there is a spiritual reason why you went through what you did.

You are not meant to know everything, otherwise you wouldn't make the choices you have made to get to this point, and although you are upset about the choices, there are some very good reasons why you have had to travel down this path.

Relax your hold on the control you feel with knowing who you will marry.

Unless this information is important for you to know,  there is very little I can do. God/dess will reveal this information to you only if you are supposed to know it. It can't be forced. 

We (intuitives) serve as conduits/channels for your guides and ours, to tell you of important stuff you need- to assist with awareness of your life lessons.

Stay true to your heart and your health. This you are urged to do!

AND

Make choices which will always uplift your spirit . . . for your highest good~ and which will create greater joy.

As you continue on your journey through life, you'll find that if you do the above things, you'll be exactly where you are meant to be; and WITH the person you are supposed to be with at the time!

Light!

Fawn

(*for greater detail we'll talk in private!)