Could Be You
So, you know how we teach best what we most need to learn? It's so true!
I recieve emails and hear things from folks about how 'life is too hard and sad to EVER reach a level of enlightenment' which they somehow associate with ME.
Well, HA! :)
That's so funny! I'm the very person to talk with if you want to know how to learn spiritual truth through your traumas, tragedies and hardships.
I'm all ABOUT the 'way of the wounded healer'- and if you knew a little more about my life you'd maybe, be suprised.
Firstly, I was born in LA, CA to a woman who is mentally ill and a father who had recently been shot and paralyzed from the waist down. Dad was still in the hospital the day I was born. Mom was mentally fragile and not rationale. This is my beginning.
Three years later I was miles away in Buffalo, NY living part time with my very wonderful maternal grandparents and part time on the streets, hitch hiking all over the place with mom.
Many boyfriends (creepy ones), many benches in the park at night, numerous bus & train station restroom benches as beds. . .and quite a few hungry months.
By age seven (this is 35 years ago!) I'd found the Krishna People and spent a great deal of time learning about vegetarian foods & meditation. I was a free, hippy child - latch key kid, in upstate NY in the 70's.
Mom was in a horrible relationship with a screaming and abusive Italian man. She took off with another man to Europe (very rich) who took us on a ship to England and then around the world. But it was a volatile connection and he left us there and went back to America.
Hitch hiked all over Europe for a while.
This was traumatizing and I was so hungry BUT I do remember some very important psychic moments which showed me of my past lives and what I'm working through now.
Yes, I realized very young that I'd chosen my parents, my path and my life, despite the environment I was in.
By age 8 years old I was miles away again, missing my stable grandparents but now near other family, in Michigan. Once again we were hitch hiking and moving all over the place. Third grade, three states and seven different schools.
By 9 years old I was skipping school and refusing to go anywhere. ON STRIKE.
My grandparents had retired from Buffalo (grampa a music professor) to KY and I wanted to move there, with them. I wanted stability, a real room and a home with REAL FOOD.
I went to KY and from that point on spent some early years and in High School in a good space. The truamas and chaos of childhood in limbo as I finally had a chance to thrive.
But guess what, after College years (actually during college) I began to recreate similar situations and relationships buried away in my childhood unconscious.
Though very psychic & spiritually minded, I still made really stupid relationship choices and found myself in a great deal of un necessary self inflicted pain.
I've known great joy, I won't leave that out.
BUT, I have two kids with two different dads. I've gone through years of court to get away from an abusive man and his parenting. I did win & learned so much.
I've moved away from my safety zone, sight unseen to a new state with my children, for reasons of better environment and healing.
I know what it's like to survive years and years with no child support and no help. Hard core single parenting.
All the parents in my life have died of cancer. I still have relatives but most aren't so close to me. I work to keep the family connections that I still have.
What I'm trying to communicate here is that I'm not in such a different boat than many who call me.
HOWEVER, choices have led me to deep and wonderful truths about life and death, spirituality, energy and how to work with it!
There's very little I can hear from a client which shocks me. I have the ability to connect with deep empathy to people (EMpaths tend to do this :). I also have aquired the ability to create solid boundaries when necessary. I can teach both!
It's not a secret that I've spent a great deal of time in school. Three majors and Bachelors (BA Psychology & Child Development; BSN, Nursing). This schooling was for my inner work and growth as much as it has been for finances and life.
Spiritual experiences, so many! Yes I was born to walk on both sides of the veil at times. But it's OKay.
I wanted to share this with you because for some of you, knowing I'm so very far from perfection will help you see that spiritual work is NOT just for the folks with peaceful & stable lives!
I hear all the time that life looks so EASY for me. Maybe I've learned to make it LOOK easy, but I do have crosses to bear.
I truly DON'T 'sweat the small stuff'. Can't afford to!
LOL.
A person with many traumas can choose to create harmony and change. This is the beauty of it all.
Light!
Fawn