Years ago I stumbled across LIVE ADVICE which was a very simlar service as KEEN is now. I was going through a 'dark night of my soul' and my instinct was to reach out and find a spiritual advisor.

I had grown up connected to spirit and wanted my answer to come through spirit.

I remember my desperate need to find signs and answers. I remember the way I felt when I called a reader . . . I wanted to recieve my answers from spirit THROUGH her.

I'd ask a question and silently pray for my validations to be channeled from a higher source I was familiar with already -GOD/DESS.

I realize now how very disconnected I was at the time. So unbalanced and fragile.

I wanted to hear ANY magic words, take any magic pill to help the hurt . . . I wanted lightning to strike my situation and for a miracle to occur so I'd feel WHOLE again.

I've been through an amazing lot of huge dramas and traumas & I know each of us has our own cross to bear - so my troubles are my own . . .  I'm not sharing this to try & 'one up' anyone regarding how hard life can be.

But I KNOW what it's like to feel alone and out of control. I know how it feels to spend too much money on phone readings just to soothe those demons who scream and cry in one's heart.

People call a reader for many reasons, but the number one reason I'd venture to guess, is to finally grab hold of a 'life line' which will pull them up and away from the hole they're stuck in; To bring them 'home' again; back to balance, wholeness, self love and contentment.

We all go through phases of desperation, times when things feel out of control.

We ALL do.

If you have spent a fortune calling readers on sites like KEEN and are ignoring the loss of control- as you spin out of it day after day . . . searching for a perfect 'fix', you aren't alone.

It's not that any of these wonderful, loving and soul-filled advisors are to blame for this odd addiction - an expensive form of spiritual comfort . . .  no this isn't the case at all! 

It is the caller who needs sincere self examination.

It was ME.

I'm a very psychic, spiritually gifted person. I knew this then, and I know this now.

YOU reading this- you probably are, too.

KNOW that if you're drawn to spiritual guidance, there's good reason.

Money is energy and we exchange it for things we need and want , yes?

If you look at money like this- you'll be able to forgive yourself the over-spending and look CLEARLY at yourself for a choice you made to find healing and comfort through this route of exchange. 

You seek to find a connection to Source & to FEEL your answers are true and real.

The unknown future often feels frightening & is relieved by frequent predictions - (like comforting that 'baby' in ourselves);

What I came to KNOW is that I'm the creator and the predictor of my life.

I'm the only one who can 'let go and let God/dess' in my life- and develop a plan of action for my future.

I grew stronger emotionally, as I moved through the many KEEN calls & predictions. I came to realize what I silently knew all along:

EVERY PREDICTION WHICH CAME TRUE IN THE END - I ALREADY KNEW DEEP DOWN . . . THEY WERE GOING TO HAPPEN.

ALL THE ONES WHICH DIDN'T HAPPEN, I KNEW THIS AS WELL.

Did I waste my time and money?

Maybe I could have had my epiphanies sooner & saved myself much grief and money lol. But NO WAY was any of this a waste of time.

I did not grow bitter or take my anger out on myself or on the readers.

Some people do attack the readers; but I didn't BECAUSE I realized that I could turn my experience around to help others.

I am accountable for my actions and my spiritual choices.

I needed to learn from some of the readers. I NEEDED the exchange of energy w/them on some level.

Not only this, I became a better reader and spiritual guide by going through all I did!

 I came to a place where I faced myself and admitted my avoidance of TAKING POWER OVER MY OWN DESTINY.

Then came 'discernment' and retreat from calling psychics for a long while. 

This healing began a stretch of soul -searching and accountabilty with myself - that it was TIME TO CLAIM my experiences;

TO REMEMBER WHO I AM.

I could never have achieved the level of compassion I feel now toward callers who seek answers from myself and others here on KEEN . . .  not without this past experience of having lived through being a 'regular caller' on this network years ago.

Ironically, I was a very gifted psychic reader who'd lost her way.

I lost my way so that I'd LEARN WHAT IS FEELS LIKE TO FIND MY WAY AGAIN

 :-)

 I can tell an authentic reader from a BS reader . . . it's a self study I've earned a Ph.D in, believe you ME!

I know the karmic weight of lying to a person who is desperate- just to soothe their feelings  between KEEN calls.

I know how to heal myself & others on a spiritual level; and I DO practice everything I 'preach' lol.

Most of all, I've learned to TRUST my guidance.

This is the difference between myself going through the 'hell' time and myself now.

 I learned to bypass the 'medium' and go straight to Source . . .  for myself.

And I learned to ask for help from a 'medium' in a constructive self aware way, when I need one.

 I DO still call at times; and when I do it's money well spent and planned carefully.

It's wonderful to be connected to so many divine readers who are helping others in this way, including me- when I reach out.

We can't be strong and successful and create miracles in our lives until we first FACE ourselves and admit (most humbly) to ourselves, where we ARE emotionally and spiritually at this moment.

For it's when we wake up and surrender to our weaknesses - that we are finally able to GAIN STRENGTH and move to a higher spiritual level.

There are some things I can't control - like the actions, decisions and feelings of another person-.

I can't make someone love me or be in a romantic relationship with me if they no longer want to, or never did want to. 

I CAN create love in my life by letting go of the control of  those things I know I can't force; and by trusting that divine spirit will guide a perfect person to me at the perfect time.

 TIME.

Here's a biggy!

Patience is something we have control of, but NOT time. 

Trust, faith, patience, surrender, LOVE, intent to create, imagination, JOYFUL FANTASY OF WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO LIVE ALL YOUR DREAMS -

YES! We do have control over all of these.

OUR THOUGHTS are REAL and CREATE our REALITY.

Say 'YES!" to your dreams. Really, I mean it -right now say with conviction 'YES' while visualizing and feeling exactly what you want right now:

'YES!!"

I know I'm preaching to the choir for the most part.

But if you are reading this and it speaks to you, then writing this is worth while. 

YOU ARE LOVED AND NEVER ALONE.

I know it's difficult to see this when you may look around and feel like an orphan.

You may be a person who truly has no family around you or loving support system right now  . . .  maybe this is why some souls call psychic readers, to find that place in ourselves that affirms we aren't alone, and someone to validate this pain or joy in our hearts.

The miracle is when you wake up & SMELL THE COFFEE (hee hee) to claim your JUICY BLESSINGS - KNOWING that you are already forgiven, you are already at the doorway, already on that threshold of success . . . & you only need to let go and FLY~!

Light!

Fawn