Living single in a void . . . this time of life where my baby is now an adult daughter - about to attend college far away, and my forty two year old self is about to change careers, move thousands of miles away and create an entirely new home with my young son and good friends-  it's a little scary. This week is a new challenge as I'm down to the money I anticipated I'd have left and it's looking humble in relation to the huge trip I'm about to undertake - my condo needs deep cleaning and more packing but I'm feeling suddenly weak and tired - my daughter is sad about leaving her boyfriend to go to seperate colleges so she is grumpy- and my outdoor cat caught another baby bunny this morning which pretty much bums me out for a while. These cats, they will be getting their bills of health on monday so that next saturday they can fly on an airplane to Portland, OR. Three of them! My son worries about how they will react and be treated by our friends there, and about what the little weaner dog will do when he sees he has something new to chase. My co workers from work- the weekend staffers who I worked with for close to 8 years, they have asked me to dinner this wednesday and it's very touching! My other friend is taking me to lunch on tuesday, to say goodbye. There is a family reunion going on this week at my 90 year old great aunt's home and I will have the opportunity to say goodbye to everyone I love there, too. Last week in KY I got to see folks who really love me, who appeared out of the blue after years and years, and to say hello and goodbye. I have given away 1/3 or more of my stuff, meaningful gifts like hundreds of childrens books, my antique looking entertainment center, the netted trampoline and many toys, clothes and odds and ends- to people I love and feel thankful for. It feels as if my life is going through some sort of graduation experience, transitioning from one phase to a new one, and a part of my old me is really dying and I'm about to be reborn. It makes me feel nervous, actually, as the universe is providing all kinds of opportunities for me to see and say hello and goodbye to significant places, things and people. This week I'll attend a shamanic circle for the last time in maybe forever- with my beautiful group of friends in Mason, MI. I will maybe be with my children as their mom one big last time before my oldest becomes a woman, complete, and blossoms into this amazing musician and biologist which is inside her. I may be going on a trip of a lifetime to see all the national parks in western states I've never seen- during a time when gas is not so bad that all trips are cancelled. It feels like a big chance and a big change. I feel really drawn to Oregon - it's energy and flowing spirit right now. I don't know if I'll stay longer than a year- the time I have committed by contract to a new job. I'm worried about the earth changes and being on the west coast- when I have 14 acres in Berea, KY, a place which has been sanctioned by many psychics as protected during the earth changes- and where my daughter will be going to college. There are so many emotionally delicate experiences taking place right now, and I sit here in my condo relaxed, the last sunday ever- as next sunday the big movers will be here. Yikes! By July 1st, all I own and love will be traveling to Oregon by movers or by u-haul trailer with me. My first cousin is coming with us, to experience this road trip through Iowa, Nebraska, Colorado, Arizona, Utah, Wyoming, Idaho . . . and this will be a really nice opportunity to get to know my 15 year old favorite uncles son. Our dog and my kids will come- we'll camp and stay in motels and cabins all the way. I want it to feel spontaneous and joyful, all our needs met and our eyes and souls filled. This is what I pray. It's amazing being a single woman, mother and free spirit during this particular time of my life. I wonder if there are more like me out there, maybe reading this now!