Yesterday started out a little crazy in my house. I bolted out of bed at 7am for no reason. I checked on Angelo and he was sleeping soundly. The girls weren’t up and Dave was dead to the world so I figured I’d go down to my office and get some things done. 8:30am rolls around and everyone got up. Dave’s 4-year old was having multiple trantrums over absolutely nothing and spent the majority of the morning in “time out”. Around 1pm he decided to take all 3 kids to the store to get their Halloween costumes, which was nice because Cristin Time is scarce these days.
I got in a 30 minute work-out and meditated in a fabulously mystical ambient. I was probably down for a little over an hour and came out of it a totally different person. When I crash during meditation it’s usually because my Chakras are all out of whack and my energy needs to heal itself. It’s amazing how wonderful you can feel after you take some time away from life to get in tune with yourself. I used a guided meditation for the first time and it was great!
After dinner last night I took some work calls and watched as Dave gave me a demonstration of his new weight bench. The next thing I know, I’m sifting through my computer and deleting all sorts of stuff I forgot I had hosted on that thing. I honestly do not remember how or why I landed there, it’s all a blur at the moment, but I’m glad I was lead there.
I previewed each file to make sure it was something I needed only to realize that I’ve been hosting items from the old-school! My God, I found pages that haven’t been updated since 2004, 2006 and 2007! Not only that, but I came across a few things I haven’t seen since 2001. Some I used and others never made it to publication. All I could think was, “Cristin, are you serious? What‘s the matter with you? How could you miss all of this?” I sat for a moment, thought about it and came to the conclusion that my computer, aka my life, is a disaster area. Yes, my computer has always been my life so how on Earth could I allow it to get so messed up? Then I wondered, “If I can neglect my computer so easily, then what am I capable of doing to myself?”
Each file I viewed took me down memory lane. I looked at those graphics made back in 2001 and compared it to what I’m doing now. What a HUGE difference! My God, I’ve grown so much just in graphic design alone and when I think about it, I’ve grown in leaps and bounds in my personal life as well. Each graphic and every page is a clear representation of who I was in ‘01, ‘04, ‘06 and ‘07. Oddly enough, those years have turned out to be the most significant, life-altering ones I’ve experienced to date! Interesting. I guess it’s time to do what I do best…chuck those files! So that’s what I did. I deleted them one by one and watched as the last remnants of my past slipped away.
The strangest thing happened when I was going through everything. I found a poem I wrote many years ago and it was the only one I had on the server. The message was about taking time for myself and getting away from life. If that isn’t a sign, I don’t know what is! Right after I deleted that poem, which was the last of the files, I received an email from my friend Jo. She sent me a link to a 10-minute You Tube video of this woman who was giving a speech titled, “Why Do We Celebrate Full Moons?“ It included thoughts about meditation, becoming one with your energy and transformation. Now how appropriate is that for me right now? Bizarre…
I’m always so amazed with how the Universe/God connects us to the right people and points us in the right direction when we need it the most. Now that I’ve had some time to let the events of yesterday sink in, I’ve realized that you can find joy through disorganization. If I wasn’t able to view those files, I wouldn’t have been able to see my growth and give myself kudos for a job well done. We all need to pat ourselves on the back once in a while and apparently my time is now. Is my life really a disaster area? Absolutely not, but it never hurts to get rid of stuff that doesn’t reflect the current reality.