Red Light, Green Light...Again!
Unlike most people, I celebrate my New Year’s Day on February 1st. Nothing special has ever happened in this month. I usually reap the benefits of that 4-week transition in March. The new “New Year” tradition began about 2 years ago after I left Michigan in the pursuit of something. What that was, I don’t remember. What I do know is that I made the right choice for myself.
Doing what’s best for yourself without allowing the pangs of guilt and fear to take over is the key to everlasting happiness, in my opinion. Just so we’re clear, I’m not saying to do this out of jealousy or with the intention of hurting another and using them as a pawn. No, no, no! I’m saying that most of the time, taking a leap of faith into the unknown will change your life for the better. It did with mine, that’s for sure.
So there I was, twiddling my thumbs and waiting for February to be over so I could start my new life. I had a lot of fantastic ideas and things I wanted to pursue right then, but was stopped dead in my tracks. I feel like a child playing that game “Red Light, Green Light“. This happens almost every year! You’d think I would have the hang of it by now, but noooo. It still drives me crazy! That’s the thing about being human; there’s always something that’ll get ya every single time.
I had a lot of topics to write about, yet I couldn’t get anything down. I had birthday money to spend, but couldn’t find anything that tickled my fancy. I had these wonderful visions for my website, but couldn’t implement the layout. Those are just a few examples. Needless to say, every door I tried to open seemed to have a huge sign that read, “DO NOT ENTER.” Then I thought to myself, “The only thing I’m able to finish or be consistent with is working out. Perhaps that’s the only thing I can take on right now.” When I had that epiphany, I decided to do what I always end up doing in this situation…chill out and let my intuition guide me to the next step. Thank God I stuck with working out because I lost 15 pounds that month, YAY!
A couple of days after my light bulb moment, I decided to check out Borders since I had a gift card. At first I was seeking a new journal, but I quickly realized while browsing through them all that it wasn’t what I needed. I haven’t been to this store in years so I looked around and came to the Metaphysical section. I found 2 new books by one of my favorite authors, Sonia Choquette and had a major intuitive hit to buy them. I don’t normally spend a lot of time reading other people’s work if they’re in my field because that might influence my writing. I understand there are other people out there who have belief systems similar to my own and that‘s cool, but I still need to be original.
I bought the books and started reading one. I didn’t even make it passed the introduction when I realized that I was lead straight to the perfect source of motivation I needed. That’s the thing about letting go…the Universe always has something special in store, we just have to wait until it is time. That special thing for me at that time was finding new and innovative ways to connect with my higher self in order to achieve abundance in my career. Abundance to me isn’t really about money. It’s about being truly happy and fulfilled with whatever I’m doing. So I gathered some tips from the wonderful author and began a new journey with my career. Unfortunately, I was stopped yet again! Hmmmm, just when I thought I had it all figured out.
So I lived through February just fine and there wasn’t a whole lot going on. I did have to prepare for my trip to Vegas, which was March 1st. I figured that Vegas would be the highlight of March and I was expecting to get the green light to move forward after I came home from my trip. When that didn’t happen within the first two weeks I thought to myself, “Okay, I guess I’m missing something here.” Well, I was. On March 17th ( our anniversary) Dave said to me, “So…do you wanna do it?” and I said, “Sure. Wait, you’re talking about sex, right?” No, he was talking about marriage so now we’re doing it on April 4th.
Once I got engaged, I was finally able to finish this blog entry. I started it at the beginning of February.