I recently returned to Keen blogging.  On the second day I encountered a silly drama.  Now of course that's all it ever is with this sort of public domain...silly dramas.  There's no real threat, no great looming danger, no breaking hearts or wounded pride.  There is nothing deeply hidden here; nothing to wiggle a little toe in and make declarations about.  Just silly dramas.  I got tired of it long ago and see no purpose for it.  But yet I believe that in all things - even petty dramas - there lies some truth...and I make it my goal to attempt to understand where the truth is and how it applies to my life.

I considered just not blogging again here because mucking through it all can be difficult.  Having a presence here is not necessary.  I have other blogs.  I have a life.  But upon considering this whole thing I realized MY truth.  I believe that my views, opinions, and beliefs are significantly different enough that someone somewhere might benefit from paying attention to them.  Isn’t this why I work on Keen in the first place?  So what if my views and belief system is sprinkled light-heartedly through a blog of no great consequence.  We take from life sometimes what we need to take, in forms that do no always appeal to or make sense to others.  Where one person might read a harmless blog and become enraged, another will have an entirely different experience.  How is it that anyone can make the claim to being a Spiritualist and yet feel the need to not let another person's esoteric views stand as valid?  To come in and tell someone that they are wrong?...That an entire group of people is wrong and unenlightened and on the wrong path in this life?  Please, stop telling me what to think.  If you want to teach, then teach.  Your students will find you.  If you wish to preach, then preach.  Your congregation will find you.  I do not object and I do not participate.  Until the claws come out.

I have a dear friend who is a medium.  Now understand I do not believe that there are spirits around us.  I do not believe in ghosts.  I do not believe in angels.  Mind you, I do not disbelieve in these things, I am merely undecided.  Regardless of all of this…I do believe in my friend, as both an individual and as an extension of myself.  That is to say that I can openly love another human being who operates in a completely different framework than I do, without judgment and without conflict.  Simply because I appreciate differences in people and because I understand that enduring/exploring these differences might somehow expand my experience in this life.  I am disappointed that someone would twist a silly drama into me not being able to be Opposed.  I enjoy opposition as much as I enjoy alliance.  I feel connected to a person through differences, if they allow it.  What I will not allow is someone to deface my views or the views of others.  We each can write on our Wall of Life anything that we desire.  If I allow you to write on my Wall…I ask only that you be respectful.  If you placed angry graffiti on my property, who would object to my right to paint over it?  (Thank you, Meri, for that analogy!)

When someone who is human comes to me and says they have The Answer to spirituality, I stand back…waiting for them to explode into a glorious shower of white light and flowers and softness and beauty.  But it has never happened.  So far, they have always remained human.  And as a human they are fallible.  Their answer is very likely flawed.  Just as my answer is likely to be flawed.    

 

I am not a spiritual messenger.  I am a spiritual explorer.  If there is a God, or a Unity…I do not believe my purpose is necessarily to understand It.  I do not hear “Move closer to Me, my child, find me in the darkness and take comfort” as the undercurrent of my life.  I hear “Be free of me…explore it all…experience what you find as I cannot, and be brave.”  I believe in pushing past my limits, finding connections previously undiscovered, and redefining dogmas and expectations based on MY perceptions and experience.  Life is a tool to gaining further understanding of How It All Works.  I do not trudge through life with faith that there is something better on the other side…I soar through life with the truth that there is something better HERE, right here, in THIS life.    

 

I have been called arrogant, stone-hearted, unenlightened, and so many other things in the last day.  OK.  Fine.  Said, done.  But anyone who knows me knows that I am just arrogant enough to go head to head with life…brilliantly….I am just soft-hearted enough to be loved greatly and give love freely…I am just unenlightened enough to keep searching for further enlightenment.