Trinity Connection Interactive Empowerment Suite

Sister Othelia, so many people want so much for so little these days, it's as if we are becoming a society that expects instant everything.  I was telling my daughter the other day how much I miss having an open fire, she looked at me and said but what about all the preparation needed to get it going, and all the cleaning it needs, and I told her there is nothing more satisfying than sitting back afterwards knowing it's because of the work put into it that you can give thanks and enjoy it more.  I mean switching on the central heating dosn't give me nearly as much satisfaction and pleasure from the heat I get as having to rub two boyscouts together to cause a spark to light the straw that lights the logs.  If more people would understand to make things better you have to take action, more people would be content and happy, after all words don't do anything action does.

Thank you AmyArcana for your comment, I find a lot of people decide it's not going to work for them as soon as they find out it's not as easy as thinking, seeing, feeling, sitting on your butt waiting for whatever you want to fall out of the sky.  As you have found out staying in that place of inspired action takes some doing especially when we feel nothing is happening and we try to push the river too much.  

You are most welcome Ginger a postive rant is always welcome.   It's all about taking responsibility for your own life and stopping blaming others for everything that happens to you, but like you say you have to want, really want your life to get better because changing patterns built up over a life time isn't easy, and some people will have larger onions to peel than others, but once you start and you feel and see the benefits it starts to get a little easier, because you know there is light at the end of the tunnel, and lets face it how on earth can you start to attract all you want when you are still holding onto all you don't want, and letting go of what you don't want isn't as simple as just changing the way you think, you have to work out why you think the way you do.

Trinity Connection,
Great responses! In response to your question, and to echo Ginger's statement, I didn't find the Abraham-hicks material until I was deeply depressed and felt really bad, I really wanted to feel better, and I wanted my life to be better. I was asking for change in a big way.

I just knew life wasn't supposed to be as tough as I was experiencing it, but I didn't know how to get out of it.  My therapist at the time introduced me to some of the Abraham tapes.

Since then, I've actually tried to take a softer approach to solving problems in my life.  I'm still learning, but I've found less angst around issues, and more of a feeling of objectivity.  Problems don't seem as big to me anymore, and I'm not as hard on myself as I used to be.

Not sure if I answered your question, but its interesting to think about!

Amy

Good morning Ladies! This is great dialogue... I have been reading self-help books since the early 90's. I was also in analysis for 3 1/2 years in the mid-late 90's during which time I swam in (not cleared through!)the past with my misguided and horny therapist. My husband was terminally ill at the time, we were in our 20's, and in my fundamentalist mindset I believed God was punishing me for my sins by allowing my partner to become so sick.
I believed I was loosing my mind so I put myself in therapy.

I read so many books, spent so many hours in analysis. I did everything I could. Everything! As the years went by I got sicker and sicker. I was not aware of my "abilities" and I was sucking up everyone else's thoughts and feelings.

I wanted to commit myself by the year 2000 but feared I would never get out of the hospital. I also knew that although I felt "crazy" that I wasn't crazy in the way others might think. What made me feel so "nuts" is that I could SEE through my outer material reality, through society! I was riding on BART in San Francisco one afternoon and I looked around at the full train car and not one person could meet my smile or my eyes. Yes I am insane I thought, but it is because I am ALONE!

It would be reasonable to say that I was lost and "crazed" until this past year. I lived with a death wish. I've kept journals for the past 7 years documenting the most tulmutuous inner process I could imagine. I went to the scariest places I could inside and in the material realm. I pulled one long Lt.Dan from Forest Gump, I sat on the mast and said bring it on!

The thing is, I was always alive the next day but sicker and sadder and life just got harder.
It wasn't until I left my home country (running from real danger) that my insanity began to avail it's source. That source is that I was severely disassociated from my incestuous youth. For all my intended reality-based living and very earnest attempts at healing, nothing could work and no one could help because no one knew.

I was masterful at what I had partitioned off. When the pieces of the puzzle started coming together (Oh my Gawd!, bloody, bloody) my whole life's confusion made sense. After the relief wore off a little I realized looking to others had been my nemesis. From the earliest days of my life I had been taught that I couldn't trust myself, that I didn't know what I was talking about, that I wasn't smart or aware, that I was sinning in questioning God and that I was inherently evil.

I was so obediant as a child and wanted to please so I poured over my bible before school in the morning and asked God to help me understand him and what he wanted me to be.
We know when we are of pure heart, and I knew my desire even as a young girl to be "good".

The desire was always there. The drive wore down though. Many of my future mentors in the metaphysical world gobbled up my curiousity and my light and my gifts. Whenever I began to surpass my mentor's abilities or understanding, sabotage would ensue in the form of emotional manipulation to "keep me". I was looking for someone to tell me what the hell was wrong and I met a whole lot of ego maniacs through my unconscious manifestation of these "healers".

I started writing a book called "There is no Prophet, There is only YOUR truth" last spring. I've had to put it away to keep doing my inner work though. If I think back on the violations of my trust I get lost in blame and anger. I now understand that I manifested and chose this whole glorious life experience so it's all about me now and I know that. I tore the nails off my fingers scaling the walls of self awareness. I also know it was the journey I intended for myself before I came here this time around. Therefore I give love to my challenges and thanks to my higher Self for being willing to go through all of this with me.

Of course in that new found objectivity to which Amy Arcana refers, I can see my choices and boundaries as 2 separate entities. I can see my choices and take responsibility for them while holding others accountable for their choices at the same time. We all need love. We all need an ear. We all would like to have a buddy in this journey to ease the pain of the exploration. I believe a mentor could serve us all in this mission but unless our mentor is serving us in "sponsor" manner like in 12 step programs danger can lurk right around the corner.

There are some healers in my life currently that I trust but only because they themselves will tell you that they are human and don't have all the answers. They share their tools and feedback for that is all anyone is qualified to give. No one has an answer for anyone else. If they do, run away!!!

I have never called an advisor because I believe we create whatever we want for our future. How can someone else know when something will happen for you? We make it happen for ourselves! We are, everyone of us, fallable so it is grossly irresponsible for someone to tell us something about ourselves, our future, as though it is "TRUE". If something happens to you that a psychic has predicted it is because you manifested that exact thing.

On the other hand, I have found comraderie and kinship on some of these pages at Keen. I can tell who is about healing and who is working strictly from ego as I scroll down the advisor blogs. If something moves me I'll comment but mostly I'm just observing Life these days.

You asked what was not a simple question for me to answer. Please pardon my manners if this was too lengthy, but maybe someone will see this and like you, I will be happy if one person resonates. Also, you might find this interesting...
Several weeks ago I decided what I wanted to do with my life since my old career was self-destructive. I am opening a holistic practice in my home called Focused Listening. It is on a donation basis only and that feels right for me. I will offer Reiki and focused attention. I will reflect what I hear to my client and give them unconditional support. I will offer a library of the books I have read, tea, musical instruments, and saltwater baths to relax the mind and body. This is what my journey has qualified me to do, to nurture and support. I am going to be outreaching to women in the adult entertainment industry, a field of work which saved and destroyed me all at the same time. I will be offering a huge referral network of healers and practioners and sending clients to certain blog sites here on Keen, to advisors who are working from the right place, a place of service.

So yes, in conclusion I do think we need a mentor but my path was to realize that I needed to look inside. This is the knowledge with which I hope to empower others!

Thank you Trinity Connection and AmyArcana for your love and wisdom, it has been an honor to share here with you    Ginger

It is absolutely cool with me if anyone feels their heart tug at the idea of opening a holistic practice like mine. Do it! The donation basis is going to create such a blessed atmosphere. Please anyone, feel free to dance to the Sun with my idea. There could never be too many safe havens in this world! Always honor the trust with which you are being given! Let love prosperity flow! Yay!

Like I said at the beginning if this resonates with even just one person my job is well done.  Thank you so much for your input and your compliments, now I'm blushing.  I go where Spirit leads me and do what Spirit asks of me that is all I can do.  Blessings and Angel rain on your continuing journey.