I am going to share a very personal blog here with you. In hopes that it can help you find that strength and embrace the power and love of the God within and throughout.



I was in an unhealthy place, if I am ever in one, Spirit is not happy with me because I know better, I preach and teach about this and well, its my turn to heed to the call and there is no lesson in this, when I was crying last Friday in Long Beach, CA and I live on the East Coast, I was saying what is the lesson in this oh GOD? I heard nothing and realized that - There is none, that is what Spirit was saying to me.



"Listen, why are you crying, why are you hurting, why are you expecting anything from anyone? Why are you hurting child?! If someone is not ready, there are not going to be ready for a while, let them be. There is internal chaos, pray and let this be, live life fully as you are not NOW, only 75% that is not enough of your LIGHT to shine through or enough for your LIGHT to shine through. You have dimmed your light for a type of love and affection that even you may not realize is enough. Human love is not enough until is comes from a place and is feed only from the place of God's love and is genuine from the HEART of the giver. This precious LOVE of GOD is Love which is ever flowing, pure, true and fulfilling that even the giver is filled in abundance... Let go, teacher, and let the learning PROCESS begin, you know what that is yourself if you have even loved and healed and is loving again. For the real lesson of love is to remain vulnerable, open heart, connect with your Christ Light, and your relationship with yourself and find the BALANCE for all those things at once.

You see all of this has so much meaning as I am studying Paramanhansa Yogananda's teachings in The Divine Romance, other Self Realization Techniques for healing in the vibration of God's love. There is a lot of mental transformations that needs occur here, it is not easy, but persistance and dedication is the pathway to see that light shine through.

Spirit on 4/8 finished the sentence and the whole paragraph for me. WOW! I have truly disconnected from God in an inch on I believe 7/2 and it became a few miles and I did not even realize this until now. So it is all coming clearly to me now that my disconnection was made when I believed that I was still there 110%. Another, view so I can learn and grow and not repeat this again. Which is totally possible as my path with God is great and I AM deeply in love with God/Goddess. But getting excited about manifesting love or manifesting in general side tracked me and I was side tracked to learn to harness the balance of SELF and love myself much more.

Opening the eyes and the heart and not the mind, should be the reward of a learning process of the giver. Behold the power of Now, the power of thoughtlessness and more so the heart felt love of the God energy that can flow through me as I become an open conduit for LOVE>

Thanks for listening. Hopefully my words can share in your heart and thanks greatly for sharing this with me. Take care.