Balance


Struggle,

Struggle,

Struggle,

I repeat

To myself

Overcoming…

Struggle

In life

I awoke

In the dark

Questioning myself

How do I overcome?

What does this all

Mean to me?

And then I thought

Struggle

The one word

Arriving

Out of the night

Into my mind

With insight,

I thought of my world

And what does it mean?

How do I overcome?

So many problems,

So much pain,

Struggle

I have always

Had to begin again

I do not know

What I was pondering

In my dreams

This night,

Those memories to fleeting

From my brain

Faded to fast

To be thought again,

But...

The one thing

That remained

A single thought,

A single answer,

I struggle

This is how

I overcome

The root of being

For us all,

We struggle,

We strive,

To overcome

Some win

Some fail

Some see the truth

Our story is written

Between the lines,

If you can listen

If you can learn

To understand

Our wins

Our failures

Are in our own hands

To struggle,

Oh, struggle

Is our life

Our meanings

We pull

From this strife,

Life’s meaning

Lies in this…

What have you learned?

In this strife?

Some learn hatred

Anger

Passion

Some learn love

Care

Compassion

With understanding

Life isn’t about

Physical winning

Or loosing

It’s about understanding

Deeper meanings

I win

When I understand

The deeper meanings

In life’s struggles,

I loose

When I fail

To grasp

Anything below

Life’s surface lessons

We all learn

Not to do

Things that hurt

But how many learn?

That pain has more

To teach than that?

That physical boundaries

Are only the beginning

If I can but learn….

How much more life

I have earned?

In my painful lessons

That I have learned?

To read

Between life’s lines

And remember

This is where

My story is written

Then I learned

To know

My own story

To understand

Life’s other meanings

In strife

In struggle

And all of this

Is part

Of God’s greater plan

It isn’t if

I win

Or loose

It matters what

I actually do

With either

Of these positions

As to if

I really win

Or loose

In life’s plan

I can embrace

Life

In all it’s glory

Both highs and lows

Both joy and sorrow

To understand

Life is not…

A destinations

But a journey

Unto one’s self

Unto one’s God

To know,

To understand,

Yourself

Your life

To hold control

To have

Your own authority

Is part

Of God’s command

To learn

Your own story

To see

Your own role

To own

Your own life

To become

A participant

Not merely a player

You must

Own your life

To do any

To do all

You must understand

That life is struggle

And how to stand

To find your balance

Embrace it all

Seek deeper meaning

In even

Your own falls,

If in deep waters

Become a diver

Is my stand

All life has more meaning

If you can see

It’s colors

And understand

Cliché as it is

You only get out

What you put in

If you choose

Not to see

Then you choose

Life in grey colors

Without deeper shades

That come to me

My life

Has great meaning

To me

I wouldn’t change

A thing

I simply ask

God’s grace

Help me remember

To seek deeper meaning

To understand

Balance

Comes with knowledge

Of my own feelings

And what I do

Within my eternal self

I can find happiness

Only within myself

Within...not without

I find the answer

To every question

I ask

Inside

I find…

Questions,

Answers,

Knowledge,

I conquer the world,

As I learn

To know myself,

Because my happiness

Or misery

Are a reaction

Of understanding

I can change

One

To be the other

With the power

Of thought

Not easily done

Not easily won

Not easy to hold

But still...

Mine for the asking

I merely

Need to see

Myself in the mirror

Of me

To accept

Who I am

To strive to know

More about myself

I gain control

I learn true happiness

That permeates my soul

I am

My own conqueror

I am

My own queen

I decide my life

With my own decree

I seek God

As I know him

In everything

I pray for knowledge

To continue to see

Life’s colors

So graciously gifted

Unto me

Through this knowledge

The fact

I learn balance

By learning

All my life

Has value

To know that

Is enough

To accept

To embrace

To step forward

To live life

By just one day

At a time

Struggle,

Struggle,

Struggle,

In this we find…

Balance

If we learn

To read life

Between the lines

This is my answer

In which

My peace rests

Secure

In the past

Present

And future

I find my balance

Inside of me.

07-07-07 5:00am Notes: I woke up about an hour ago thinking about what does this mean to me (in my dream I was asking myself about some bracelet?). As I awoke… I thought it represents my struggles. I repeated the phrase…struggle, struggle, struggle. And then it hit me….the question became…how do I overcome? I had the answer…struggle…even before the question. I repeated again…struggle, struggle, struggle. I thought to myself in the dark…..this is a poem. I needed to remember it, but knowing thoughts are so fleeting…I got up and turned on the lights. I searched for paper and pencil and began to write. Again as so often lately my writing takes on a life of it’s own as if driven on by something unseen. I did think of one other thing as I arose in the dark…a question…I had asked another…”How did you arrive at your balance?” I don’t know if this poem was a gift of that answer but I choose to believe it is so. I watched only half the movie “One Night With the King” which was the answer from the other to watch the movie for the answer to his balance. I will finish the movie in the morning and see if my answer is the same as the others. I asked about balance of another because I only recently learned the secret to my own.