Human Awareness Institite
Since 2005, I have been involved with taking workshops through the Human Awareness Institute.
For me, HAI was an awakening of the beauty and sensuality within me. Discovering the true beautiful Goddess that I am came through the HAI workshops. I didn't go there and expect to come out of there feeling connected to my heart and feeling HER inside of me. It came through rediscovering ME as I was meant to be.
I was raised by a mother who inadvertantly taught me to be ashamed of my imperfections-my funny toes, my frizzy hair, etc. She was saying cover yourself up, hide your body. As a result, I felt like I wasn't worthy of love and affection. Actually I took on her thoughts about what she didn't like about herself, and she put them on me. If I had had children, I would have in turn given these beliefs to them. I lived my life with these deeply instilled thoughts for more than 50 years, so don't think for one minute that I don't still struggle with it, because I do. I still struggle in relationships with thse feelings as well; however, I recognize them now. For me, it is almost like being able to be reborn again with a new beautiful emotional and sexual self. Now what you do with that new beginning is how you allow yourself to experience your life outside of the HAI workshops. Through HAI, I am able to recognize these deeply instilled beliefs and work on removing them.
I believed in what my mom was trying to tell me until I discovered the nudist lifestyle and the freedom of being ME-not having to be perfect. Although the nudist lifestyle has nothing to do with sex, it has helped me to accept myself on a deeper level than ever before. Today, I am happily living my dream of living in a nudist resort in Florida.