The Awakening of the Sexy Goddess within me - my story
I believe and feel within the very depths of my soul that I am a "Sexy Goddess" and therefore I AM. I didn't always feel that way though. Here is my story.
The awakening of the sexy goddess within me was quite unexpected. The beginning of the awakening began in November 2004 when a relationship I was in came to a sudden halt. I was extremely inhibited with him due to having been hurt very badly by a previous relationships, from being a Goddess in Menopause (by the way I have an incredible affirmation for this), and from my own self created issues from childhood. All that amounted to "an almost non existant sex life". I had made a decision somewhere along the way that sex no longer mattered to me. The only problem was it mattered to the man I was with. We never really talked about “my lack of enthusiasm” even when it ended, but I knew the exact moment when he reached “the fed up moment”.
When you look at it from a positive angle, I wouldn't be where I am today if the relationship hadn't ended. I went into an immediate emotional talespin and then made a decision to take a series of love, sex and intimacy workshops. In 2005 I flew all over the country taking these workshops every other month and ended up taking 6 workshops (one was a woman's tantra workshop). Last year I took one (another woman's tantra workshop). and I made a decision today, 6/1/07, to take Level 6 (there are seven in the series). I am very excited, and I cannot wait. It is time for me to grow and expand more. My experiences with those workshops were unbelievable transformational for me. AND I AM STILL GROWING. What's exciting is that I am excited about sex and intimacy.
My story (from the very beginning) began in childhood. Although I was raised by a wonderful loving Jewish mother, I took on her guilt and negative feelings about sex. I grew up believing that sex was "bad" and not to be enjoyed. I was raised by a mother who taught me to be ashamed of my imperfections-my funny toes, my curly hair, etc. She was saying silently-cover up, hide your body I believed in what she was trying to tell me until I discovered the nudist lifestyle and the freedom of being ME-not having to be perfect. Although the nudist lifestyle has nothing to do with sex, it has helped me to accept my body.