Trust Everything

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Be still.  Really be still.  And know that you are loved.  Love & Peace ~ Boadachia

Guiltlessness

"Everyone you offer healing to returns it to you. Everyone you try to make guilty keeps the attack, and cherishes it by holding it against you. (Whether he actually does this, or does it not, will make no difference; you will perceive him doing so!) It is impossible to give what you do not want for yourself without receiving this penalty. The cost of giving is receiving! Either you receive a penalty from which you suffer, or happily receive a treasure to hold dear.

Each day, each hour and minute, even each second, you are deciding between the crucifixion and the resurrection as you choose between the ego and the Holy Spirit. The ego is the choice for guilt. The Holy Spirit is the choice for guiltlessness. The power of decision is but yours. There are no alternatives except truth or illusion. And there is no overlap between them, because they are opposites which cannot be reconciled, and cannot both be true. You are guilty or guiltless, bound or free, unhappy or happy. It is your choice!"

~ from A Course in Miracles

This, by far, has to be one of the most challenging quotes from ACIM. Yet, because guilt is at the root of every illusion as a result of the original seeming separation from God, of course the ego will defend and protect guilt at all costs. Can you see that guilt and ego are one and the same? The entire structure of the ego was invented with guilt as its' source. To escape the original seeming guilt, the ego invented itself in an attempt to run away from what it thinks it did. The Holy Spirit, ever so patiently waits for each separate mind, each separate ego, to surrender itself over to the Holy Spirit and be returned to peace and love.....where absolutely no guilt exists.

I repeatedly tell myself and clients that you can not do "this world", "this illusion" by yourself. The reason being, you think you are your ego and as such, it (the ego) will always give you a solution that stems from that original guilt. Therefore, at some point, when this illusion of life gets ugly enough, inconsistent enough, ever-changing, out of control, you will look for something you can trust. And believe me, when I say that which you must trust does not exist in another person, in another illusion, or anywhere in this world. To trust the Holy Spirit is to admit that you really know nothing. To trust the Holy Spirit means to surrender and hand over EVERYTHING to It. Because as the Holy Spirit sees innocence and guiltlessness in EVERYTHING, It is the only thing that can restore peace and love to you. And as you hand over everything, and do this diligently, not leaving one thing to yourself to judge or deal with, you begin to discover that this thing called the Holy Spirit is actually your truth. Yes, you are One with the Holy Spirit. That is why you will begin to see everything and everyone as Love. And as you see them this way, you are offering them the Truth. And as you offer the Truth, it increases in your awareness. And as it increases, you also begin to realize that the ego is not even real, it doesn't exist. To choose the ego is to choose an illusion, a thought that flung itself into a massive web of fear. All that matters is that you see the ego for what it is.....nothing. All that matters is that you hand over everything to the Holy Spirit, so it can begin to undo this nothingness and restore only that which is real.

Love & Peace ~ Boadachia

How Blessed to be in Truth

Don't be Tricked

From A Course in Miracles ...

"There are no small upsets.  They are all equally disturbing to my peace of mind".

Firstly, the ego is going to kick in and want to claim, "Of course I get more upset if something big effects my life as opposed to something small and trivial".  If you read the second sentence above, the key phrase is peace of mind.  Where there is peace, nothing else can enter.

The ego plays a very tricky game, which is all about keeping us distracted from real peace.  It finds all sorts of upsets to keep us preoccupied.  We want to conquer the big upsets and those can take up SO much time and space!  If we only have small disturbances we may feel a sense of relief and think we feel more peaceful.

The real trick is, just as the ego tries to convince you to follow it, because it will help you through the levels of upset and bring calmer days and moments, remember that there are NO levels of peace.  There is only ONE peace and it is always the same, always constant, always consistent. 

Look back at your life for the purpose of gathering information only and ask yourself, "Have I ever really had eternal peace in my life that lasted and lasted"?  Have there not been pockets of peace for you, but they were based on what was going on outside in your life, not what was within you?  Are you ready to stop looking for peace out there?

Try an experiment.  Start to look for the small upsets.  It can be as brief as being frustrated with a sales clerk or someone driving on the road.  You could get mad that you burnt your toast or that your shoelace broke and now you're late.  Yes, these tiny upsets are all disguises of the ego, to keep you busy and away from peace.  As you encounter a small upset, take a deep breath.  Then be at peace that you are upset or frustrated.  Yes!  This is the first step.  Do not judge your mood and do not resist it.  Just simply accept that you are watching yourself be upset.  This is the beginning of watching the ego.  The more and more you do this, the more you reach true peace.  And yes, it takes a lot of practice.

Choose Once Again

From A Course in Miracles ...

"Trials are but lessons that you failed to learn presented once again, so where you made a faulty choice before you now can make a better one, and thus escape all pain that what you chose before has brought to you".

We may not always be able to jump directly to the highest road, which is to surrender everything over to the Holy Spirit.  This takes tremendous trust and faith.  However, I so often speak with people who experience (and recognize in myself) the old patterns that come up again and again throughout many lifetimes.  But if we just slow down enough to become AWARE of the pattern(s), we have accomplished the first and most critical step to changing the undesirable pattern. 

To make the other choice, to choose differently than before, takes tremendous willpower.  I often ask people to anticipate what it will look like if they don't make a different choice.  Eventually the old pattern becomes so painful, we are forced to choose again, against the ego and in alignment with our soul and the Holy Spirit.

How does today reflect yesterday? Understanding your past.

I read a quote this morning from a meditation video at www.gottaminute.net; "Accept your life as a reflection of your past understanding".

Many callers contact psychics about another person or the future. This is natural and understandable. Sometimes the answers help, other times they leave the caller frustrated or in despair.

As a psychic, because I read at a deep soul level, much of the "core" information about a person’s past reveals itself and mirrors the current situation or events in their lives, and yes, points to the future as well. Whether you are trying to understand another person or get a pulse on the unfoldment of the future, you can not ignore the past.

Two key words struck me in the quote I read this morning. "Accept" and "understanding". People spend years in therapy, analyzing, hashing over their childhood pains and hurts, only to still feel victimized by their past, unable to step away from it, but certainly bringing "up" the same emotions, over and over again. Others refuse to look at their past out of fear and guilt, which will certainly take them further away from acceptance and understanding.

Acceptance is about awareness. Accept does not mean you must continue to live with something uncomfortable or painful. First, you must be willing to take a look at where you came from, objectively. Yes, many positive traits and patterns were developed inside you as a child. Celebrate those. Without passing judgment on who taught you, take a look at those traits and behavioral patterns that still sabotage your life. Now you have awareness.

As you move into "understanding", emotions will begin to rise. This is because, as a child, your level of understanding was more about learning to cope and navigate through what was quite overwhelming and scary. These first-time lessons, if not guided properly, left you grasping to make sense of your world and environment.

For instance, what did you learn to understand about racism? Perhaps your family was prejudice. Your lessons lead you to understand that non-Caucasian people were dangerous or should not be accepted. You are now and adult working and living amongst many different races, forced to interact and allow these people to be equal citizens in your community. Many conflicting thoughts and feelings might arise that do not make sense to you.

You may have witnessed a father who was unkind to your mother or even abusive. At a young age, your understanding of this may have translated into, "women deserve to be put in their place", or "men need to dominate and control their partners". As an adult, you will either unconsciously attract these types of men if you are a woman, be the woman who is abused and needs drama in her life, or be the man who feels compelled to dominate and control.

Realize that "past understanding" is really an education system that you learned. As you dissect your education, pull out those lessons that you wish to undo. Write them down. If this becomes overwhelming, of course, seek help and guidance. Look for someone who can help you focus on a more objective and speedy look at the past, nurturing your old pain around this childhood education. But mostly, someone who can begin to help you find tools and action-steps to re-create a new education. The past can not be undone without consistency and vigilance, using new behaviors and practices.

The past is truly a reflection of our present lives. Without bringing awareness and acceptance to the past, we repeat old patterns over and over again. Understanding our past is about taking and honest look at the lessons and education we received. From there, the hard work begins; to find new ways of living. But how worthwhile and rewarding.

I will be taking calls this evening, 12/11, beginning 7:30 p.m. Mountain Time.

The Bridge Between Source and Ego

Holding Back vs. Expressing Fully

How often do your find yourself holding back when interacting with other people? Do you first check their level of comfort and then allow the other person or the situation to dictate how much you will share your gifts or to what degree you will allow yourself to shine?

While we may believe that accommodating others is the best route for all involved, it is actually a huge disservice to yourself. You may walk away from an encounter or experience feeling that you did not give everything you had to give. You may ask yourself how it could have looked different, had you expressed yourself fully. Repeated occurrences of holding yourself back are what lead to feeling depressed, unempowered, dissatisfied, and even angry. Doesn’t it seem silly to hurt yourself in order to appease others?

The ironic twist to holding yourself back from full expression is that you are depriving all the other people whom you have not met of your hidden treasures. Energy attracts like energy. When you hold back, you vibrate at a frequency that attracts similar low frecuency people and situations. When you dispense your gifts freely and abundantly, you will attract just the right people who have been praying or asking for just what you have to offer. Isn’t it worth it if some people fall off in your life or resist you, if all the right matches to your True Being show up for you?

There are so many well known people or events and people in history to draw upon for inspiration. Martin Luther King is a great example of someone who took sharing his expression to the highest degree. Another is Jesus. But you don’t have to change the world or hold someone else’s life up against yours to judge the level of accomplishment. It’s not about comparing your success or accomplishments. These types of people can just provide clues and ideas of how you can begin to honor your inner Self and take the risk of self-expression.

At some point in life, many of you will realize that the price of holding back your inner riches and wealth is far more painful and devastating than taking the leap of full expression. Sure, you may flounder and be embarrassed, feel alone sometimes, or doubt yourself. But every time you take a step in the direction of allowing your inner Self to overflow, you will see that it is far more rewarding to expose yourself and share.

From my Mother to YOU

My mother is about to be 76 y.o., plagued by many issues that an aging body encounters, while still having a very active and young mind.  When we speak, it is about her health, her grandchildren, and about her waiting to join God in the "beautiful garden" she imagines.

I received the following poem in the mail from her today.  It was confirmation for me, but it also very much reminded me of many of my clients on Keen, so I wanted to share....

It is rewarding to find someone whom you like;

   but it is essential to like yourself.

It is quickening to recognize that someone is a good and decent human

   being;    but it is indispensable to view yourself as acceptable.

It is a delight to discover people who are worthy of respect and admiration

   and love; but it is vital to believe yourself deserving of these things.

For you cannot live in someone else.

You cannot find yourself in someone else.

You cannot be given a life by someone else.

Of all the people you will know in a lifetime,

   you are the only one you will never leave nor lose.

To the questions of your life, you are the only answer.

To the problems of your life, you are the only solution.

                                                                          ~ J. Coudert

Healing Emotions

Not many people understand what I mean when I tell them that to heal emotions is to no longer have them. Am I supposed to be numb to everything and not even be happy? That’s just denying and suppressing, isn’t it? These are some of the responses I receive.

If I were to start at the outcome, the finish line, and work my way back to an explanation, I would tell you that all you are is Love. Love IS. It is a state of being, much like an electrical current moving through the wires in the wall, unable to do anything other than "be" what it is. This state of who you truly are, Love, can not co-exist with emotions.

Emotions are always temporary, always changing, and always based on, or attached to, something in this world, which also is temporary and always changing. When you look at it that way, do you really want to experience something with so little predictability and unsureness? Wouldn’t you rather see if something underneath those emotions is available to you? Something that never changes, is always available, and is better than even the happiest emotion?

You have all felt beyond emotions, the key word being "feel". It is when you have witnessed a sunset, watched a baby smile at you, looked at a painting, or listened to a song. While the "thing" on the outside triggered this feeling, you remain unattached from it. It "awakened" a feeling inside you that is difficult to put into words....perhaps a peace, a joy, a gratitude, a knowingness.

Most of us believe those "awakened" moments are rare and that we have to be a slave to our emotions, not really having control over them. Some believe themselves to be a victim, and that their emotions are caused by a particular person, place, job, etc.

One of the truths about emotions is that they are always, always, always, a repeated emotion, disguised in some outer circumstance. When you look closely at the emotion, you will sense you have felt this way before, over and over again. The same sorrow, grief, pain, anxiety, thrill, excitement, success, and so on.

Another truth, as mentioned above, is that emotions change. The tricky part of the lesson is not wanting to get rid of so-called "bad/negative" emotions and keep seeking out the "better/positive" emotions. It will never work, as you may have already found out. The moment you are experiencing a positive emotion because something is wonderful in your life, check in with yourself, and get in touch with that part of you that knows, this too is fleeting.

How then, do we really heal emotions? It is true, resisting them and shoving them away just creates a big bulge waiting to erupt. When you find yourself experiencing what seems like a negative or unpleasant emotion, the first step is to "allow it". Watch it, observe it, and be at peace with it. You will be surprised, that the more you make friends with it and keep looking at it, the weaker it becomes. Try to avoid going to your mind to justify the emotion or "think" about it or what it relates to in your life right now. Really, just "be" with it, without thoughts, and you will notice the part of you that is "being" with it, is the Truth of who you are. You, as Love, are watching this ridiculous emotion trying to grow with intensity and take over your moment.

The process of bringing awareness and presence to your emotions, without thoughts, is one that takes lots and lots of practice, so be kind to yourself along the way. If you find yourself unable to do this, and the emotions have you "playing" into the drama, there is still what I call "damage control" that can be done. And that is, to NOT make any decisions or take ANY action while you are in the emotional state. Ninety-nine percent of the time, you will regret the decision or action, once your emotions are balanced again. If you still want to take action or make a decision, you can do so the next day, or the next, or the next. This too, will help to not "feed" the emotions and keep them at bay, so to speak.

The smallest glimpse into being the witness to your emotions will help you know and feel that you are not your emotions, they are a choice, and you do not need any of them, not even the "high/positive" ones. Instead, you will begin to experience and choose the bliss, the peace, the constant presence of Love, which makes everything "out there in the world" seem less important, but then again, much more enjoyable.

Free Will

Many people believe "free will" to mean something God gave us so that we can chart the course of our own lives and choose for ourselves. But what part of us decided to take on this belief? Was it the same part of us that also decided to believe in fear, judgement, and guilt, to name a few egoic patterns. Yes, we have turned free will into "ego will", disguised behind the enlightened path of spirituality.

Free will is the only will there is, however, it is also God’s will. And God’s will is only to extend Love, nothing else. This is not the kind of love that judges, holds expectations of others, demands something, or even needs something. God’s will is about extending love, giving love, creating love.

When you find yourself making a decision from an emotional base, you have switched into ego will. When you believe you are a victim of someone else’s free will, you are in ego. When you have fear or anxiety about the future you are choosing ego will. When you seek to change anything that currently exists, or wish that it were different, yup, you are in ego will.

Since God is only love and the only truth, it can not know anything else and be a part of anything the ego creates. Everything else is an illusion. And as such, you can not have both, your ego will and free will, (or God). You must choose.

Choosing ego will is a path that always leads to despair and sorrow. Even those who claim to be happy their entire lives, with no despair, will eventually die. And to the ego, death is a very sorrowful thing.

Choosing God’s will is choosing your free will, one and the same thing. From this place, you surrender all and everything to a higher power. You make decisions from a place of peace and oftentimes, you find that there is no decision to make. This is because free will just basically exists in the creation and extension of Love. What is there to do but love?

Whenever you find yourself separate from a feeling of peace and joy, you have chosen ego will. Pretty often, hey? Why would you not want to choose something else for a change, and trust that the Source of God, which is within you, has all the answers and will lead you to the Divine Kingdom?

The Truth Within

"The truth shall set you free". These words, spoken by Jesus, came to me when I was thinking about what it meant to be true to myself. What is the truth? Are some of us conditioned to believe that there is only one truth? Are many of us bombarded with so many truths that we have difficulty choosing the right truth?

Our parents represent the first place in life where truth is taught to us. Our peers, our school systems, the government and religions, all continue to impart their truths upon us. By the time we get around to living our truth, it becomes quite apparent that we are really living through the lense of other people’s truths which we have taken on as our own.

For much of our lives, we are not even aware that our supposed individual truth is really not ours at all. But if we are to look at our beliefs, our lifestyle, and each decision we make, it is obvious that everything has been adopted from something or someone else. In many cases, this does not necessarily translate into a negative influence in our lives. We feel safe and secure, knowing that we at least have some system of truth by which we can conduct our lives.

It wasn’t until I decided to ask for more of the kind of love and faith that Jesus had, that I realized I still allow certain truths outside myself to rule my life. So, is it possible that when we push to achieve new levels of awareness that we also identify old value systems which are still imposing themselves upon us? And how far back do we need to go in order to find our original truth?

We can go back as far as our toddler years to see that we lost some, if not all, of our original truth. We have all strived to remain unique, yet also be part of the norm. We spend our entire lives wanting to remain different, but we also wanting to "fit in".

I suggest that our original truth has always been with us, it’s just buried underneath everything we have adopted here on Earth. We started out as pure love, pure energy, pure God. Whatever word you want to use, we all originated from one source. This source holds the truth, which shines through each of us in a different and unique way. Hence, it is about going back to a time before our soul incarnated as a human on Earth.

It is difficult to attempt to explain how one can master this process in one short column. Key to the process, though, is being able to have a firm belief, at all times, that you are connected to God, to Spirit. You are not connected to the Earthly things you think make up who you are. Once your faith in Spirit becomes stronger than your faith in the Earthly world, you can move through the truths outside yourself with grace and ease. You can recognize that no matter what anyone else holds true for themselves, or even for you, your truth is cemented in something bigger than you, yet very much a part of you.

Once you have spent time cultivating your belief in that one source which is divine in nature, your are ready to practice your truth on Earth school. You must be willing to speak and act that truth at all times, without fear of not belonging to the school, the church, the family, or the community to which you have formed attachments. You must be willing to stand in your truth irregardless of what others might say or think of you.

In the moments I have been able to hold a space of truth for myself, I have experienced the feeling of being set free. It is a feeling of divine love and bliss, which emanates within me and through me, irregardless of the human "element" surrounding me. It is what Jesus lived, every moment of his life.