Today I sit here thinking what if everything worked out just the way we wanted it to. Wouldn't be much fun now would it? I have learned there are blessings even in the things we consider as our darkest hour or tragedy or just plain having a bad day.
This week has been a real learning experience for me. I have sort of weeded out people I can trust, people I can't, those that are true friends and those that aren't. I have done a lot of thinking and meditating on this. I have taken long walks just to clear my mind and asked for signs along the way that I was right in what was coming to me. This is my way of knowing I am on the right path to where I am headed with what I want to do.
Saturday morning took a walk around the neighborhood, nothing in particular, just a morning jaunt as I have made a promise to myself to at least take a walk everyday to get back in touch with nature and feel that beautiful sunshine and that cool breeze that makes me alive and feel like I can do anything. As I walking I was talking to God, praying for different things and releasing old hurts and frustrations along the way. I always check out the clouds when I walk as I always see different shapes or profiles or something beautiful showing to me in the clouds when I am praying or releasing.
I then ask for signs along the way with what I have been thinking and seeing if I am right or not in the way I am perceiving things. Lately I have found myself very empathetic and can pick up on others emotions, whether good or bad at me. I have found another gift I possess and what I am getting off of some I really don't care for and some I can feel the love and warmth radiating off of them. It's a unique ability to be able to hone in one someone else's feelings like that and I try to drop it as soon as I pick it up because carrying around someone else's emotions to me is better left alone. It would be wonderful feeling love coming off of everyone but I guess nowadays with everyone so stressed they strike out at others or keep their own problems so bottled up inside that it comes through with their emotions. Cinnamon is good for this as it brings back the love to someone, just the smell of it can help calm your nerves and make your day a bit brighter. Try sprinkling some around the house and see how you feel during the day or get a candle with the cinnamon scent and watch how your emotions can calm you down.
As I was asking for signs along the way with what has been going on with me this last week I looked down on the ground and there I saw a pair of sunglasses. I heard in my head, some people hide behind rose colored eyes. I thought to myself that makes perfect sense to what I have been going through because to me that means that others are not always as you perceive them and to just beware because they are hiding something, their emotions, their fears, or their worries. As I walked a bit further, I found glass that had been shattered in a million pieces on the ground and just heard shattered dreams in my head. This to me meant others were watching as their dreams went up in smoke and how were they going to be able to go on as their dreams were shattered. One things to remember, is we all have shattered dreams but that doesn't mean because one dream of how we perceived it to happen is still not going to. It might just show up farther down the line in another way or form that we never imagined. I also saw a top of a tobacco container and it caught my eye because the word "Kodiak" was staring me in the face. I found that funny because there it was in bold white lettering staring me in the face. I know Kodiak as a big bear and that is also been my power animal since I started on this journey. I was smiling thinking "You always show to me when I need you the most". My bear's name is Monty that is how I have known him since the beginning when I asked for a name. He gives me the strength to go on when times are tough, he gives me the courage to forge ahead when others are trying to put me down and also brings me to remember to look inside sort of like "hibernating" and bringing me back to me. I walked along that day smiling thinking "Boy, what a wonderful day. When I ask for signs boy do I get them". I then asked for a sign that I was still on the right path and nothing had hindered my process. As I took the turn to go up my street there in the grass was a mint still in the package (again this is me noticing the most ordinary things but they just seem to stick out at me) I thought to myself when I saw the mint "minty fresh". I smiled and said "Yep, fresh new beginnings are on their way". I thanked God for the signs around me that day and came home and just did a meditation where I was able to bring myself back to the person I have always been.
I know that not everyday can be roses, but we can make it into a bouquet with fresh smells, new experiences, beautiful things to look at and also having faith in ourselves. I have learned through a process it doesn't matter what the person next to you is doing. We all have our own path to go down and lessons to learn. There is no need to be envious of others because all possess our own special gifts and that is the way God intended it. I try to forgive as much as I can and I also always look out for number one and that is me and my family.
So the next time you see that pair of old sunglasses on your daily walk or whatever you may encounter see the signs in it and what they are they trying to tell you. I have learned through a process again that everything and everyone we come in contact with during our day always has a lesson for us to learn. Everything can be cinnamon, spice and everything nice when you look for the true meaning behind the sign. I also always seem to find a rock that stands out at me during a walk, I actually pick it up and make it my grateful stone. I put it in my pocket and during the day every time I put my hand in my pocket I recite something that I am grateful for. Works for me and I love the idea that nature has it's own way of showing us signs. So the next time you are on a walk, look around you might be surprised at what you see and how it correlates to what is going on in your life.
I believe in what I see and won't tell you anything I do not. That is my promise to you. If you are feeling overwhelmed by things around this Holiday season take a moment and sit back and just breathe. Try it for ten minutes, you will feel a lot better after. It's all about grounding yourself and taking charge of you. Some of the grounding techniques I have found that work for me is go outside and see the beauty of nature, look around take it all in, sit under a pine tree and just let your back relax against it. The pine takes all negative energy out and transmutes it back into the ground. It replaces it with positive energy from Mother Earth herself. Take time out each day and treat yourself to something nice YOU DESERVE IT. Take a nice sea salt bath, meditate, just do something good for yourself. You are the only person that you should have to worry about no one else. Once you start loving yourself everything else falls into place. Try it and find out how much more better you feel. :)