Since 2003, "the year her father passed away", -- her life continued to change and her eyes began to open. She had to however go low to grow. She had to realize many things, experience many valuable lessons. She gave so much of herself to others that she totally forgot about the woman within her.
While she was embracing her Spirituality, she was also forgetting about the every day issues that were going on in her very own home. She did so much for others, teaching others how to grow... Her "then" husband was very dark and negative. While he seemed supportive, he continued to make remarks about her Spiritual endeavors. He also wanted to maintain a physical relationship when she was "learning" about connecting in a different way --
She needed more than a "physical" encounter. She needed and wanted the totality of a true Spiritual connection and to feel true, unconditional love. She needed a husband who would support her and their daughter and be the Spiritual leader in their home. Instead, he was continuing to grow more and more resentful of her Spirituality, not working and contributing to the household, draining her of all of her valuable energy and light. HE was the Essence of DARKNESS sucking the light out of her!
He complained about everything... he stomped and threw temper tantrums when he didn't get what he wanted, when he slept in the living room and expected everyone in the house to be QUIET... as he was in the CENTER OF THEIR HOME! People have to come and go, live like normal people but his expectation was that if he was sleeping, DO NOT DISTURB!!!!
He continued to grow more and more mentally abusive, until one day she finally stopped going anywhere, feeling very negative about herself, feeling empty because he felt empty, feeling isolated because he did.
She began to shut out the whole world, turned to the computer, isolated herself into one room and didn't leave the house for over a year. He continued to mentally abuse and drain her until one day she decided to "go out with the girls"... when she saw NORMAL people laughing and smiling, joking and actually LIVING LIFE... She began to open her eyes. She looked deep within the core of her soul and noticed all that she had let happen, while he was spiraling down, he was taking her with him.
She finally found the courage to leave -- even though he didn't have a job. (He held her hostage in a way because she was taking care of him financially for nearly 6 years). She left, in the middle of the night... with only a few items of clothing, She left her home, her things and never looked back. All she wanted was FREEDOM from him and to find the light and she did!
She soon realized that she was very emotionally scarred from the abuse, strain and every day burdens. She was vulnerable, She wasn't the confident, beautiful woman she once was. She was afraid of people. She stopped trusting and became apprehensive about everything.
When she got into a new relationship and finally found REAL love... a love that is PURE and true, good and healthy. She was afraid to trust it, she just kept waiting and waiting for the rug to be jerked from beneath her because she was so accustomed to dysfunction... she couldn't believe how inferior she felt and how intimidated she was about life and love in general.
Here's what I suggested for her:
(I hope and pray that this will help some of you to heal)
- I suggested she see a Shaman complete a series of clearings to remove the negativity that had inevitably been instilled or conditioned into her.
- I attuned her to all levels of Reiki and taught her to meditate.
- I suggested that she continue to see the Shaman and undergo the following healing modalities:
- light body activations
- Soul Retrieval
- Spiritual Response Therapy
- Angelic Weaving
After this, she began to go back to church and learned to value herself as a woman. She is slowly but surely regaining her confidence! She now does daily "affirmations", in order to keep her thoughts positive. She found a spiritual group "kind of like a spiritual counseling session" that she attends once a week.
SHE IS NOW beginning to become the woman she was BORN to be. She has true love and is embracing it! She can feel her sensuality and her connection with Spirit. She has learned about the Divine within her.
I hope her story the suggestions that I gave her will help some of you to "get out" of any abusive or negative relationship and embrace yourself truly and wholly! Let GO and Let GOD!
Love and Light to all of you!
Lisa Dianne