Even though, for most things, we all have a small amount of awareness regarding lifes events... you know, that gut feeling that you 'should have' listened to, wish you have heeded. Rarely are there times, for me, when I have no heads up, no clue, not even pertaining to my own life. There has always been 'something'. Usually a feeling or a knowing.
Nothing could have prepared me for the lifes event that occurred Christmas Eve 2010, when my youngest daughter took her own life. I always had a heads up where she was concerned, we were very plugged into each other.
Prior to her birth I had gone to a very sacred place, to do some very
sacred work and as I was coming out of the building a voice said to me,
"You're going to have a beautiful baby girl"
This was at a time when you could tell the sex of a baby prior to birth
but we chose not. I looked all around me as to whom that voice belonged
and there was no one near me. It wasn't my conscience voice or my inner
voice. It was quite separate and one I'd never heard prior. It was definitely not of this world.
She was the easiest of all my children, always happy go lucky, lively, full of sunshine. She hid things very well. From the time she was small I knew she was sent here, into this earth life for 'me'. Having had very little 'normal' in my life, with my two previous children, when she came and was 'normal' and so easy it felt wonderful. She had a magical and wondrous childhood. Always a good girl, never had to worry about her. Nearly as soon as she could talk, she told me that before she came to 'our house to live' a man walked her down a path made of shiny gold, with bright white light on both sides of the path. He placed her over, a sort of, 'fence' into our world and said to her, "This is to be your home". It was an odd thing for a 3 year old to come up with, so I took it very literally. I just KNEW that she was sent here for me. Having had two autistic children before her, I didn't know what normal was and she was such a blessing. She was highly sensitive, like myself and when I would test her for psychic aptitude she'd always fall into the 80 percent or above range.
At about age 15 she began dating someone who I KNEW was not good for her. I just 'knew' and although he seemed to have all the trappings of a decent boy, I could see beyond appearances. My daughter ended up getting pregnant by him and eventually marrying him. Well it wasn't too long after that the TRUE person behind the facade reared his ugly head. Of course my daughter had the baby, our first grandchild, but her husband forbid us to see her or the baby. Just like any control freak, he wanted to isolate her. Knowing my daughter I didn't think that would fly very long. She'd often sneak out to see us when she could. In less than 8 months after marriage, they separated and filed for divorce. At which time, eventually after having to try to make it on her own, my daughter and baby ended up moving back into our home. We took care of the baby while she worked and attended to the necessary business of life. She was an excellent mother. I was actually really surprised about it. She ALWAYS wanted to try to handle everything herself. She never wanted to burden in us in anyway, so she never told us that her ex mother in law had hired a lawyer to try and rend custody of the baby from her. Again, she never told us. Being so young and having so little life experience behind her she didn't know that she could stop this overbearing, controlling woman from what she was trying to do. The ex mother in law kept trying to convince her to sign over guardianship, over and over.......my daughter didn't, but when a few days prior to Christmas, this woman told her she had hired an attorney to rend custody, my precious daughter truly thought she was going to lose her baby. Again, she never said a word to us.
I did know the wretched nature of this woman and her son. From the get go. Inasmuch as my daughter requested no invasion into her personal business, we never pushed anything or asked any questions but depended on her for any information necessary if she felt it was.
As we all sat down to our Christmas Eve dinner, thinking my daughter was just running a little late, we got that fateful knock at the door from the police who had to share the terrible news. It was a horrible time. I won't go into the details of the difficult and negative experience but for me, who usually has a heads up on everything, this time with this situation I had NO warning. Later on as I was dealing with the difficult task of clearing out and up her room I found journal entries that revealed the mental anguish and intense duress she was under regarding the situation. She felt she couldn't go on. Had she shared any of it with me, we would have made sure those people were stopped and our daughter have all the help she needed.
There will be times, during readings wherein, a client will want to know re: future events of the upcoming week, month, year. All I can do is see how much energy is being put toward specific events at 'that' moment they ask. There really is NO predicting of a 'future' as it is literally created moment by moment with each individual choice we make that leads us down what path show up. I can tell them where I feel the energy going, or where the best place to put it but sometimes I will pick up all kinds of things BUT one major event that rocks their world. They wonder 'why' "I" didn't give them any warning or heads up. The fact is, that in some instances it is NOT to be known before hand, as we would be avoidant of the opportunities for growth had we known to divert a situation, or 'run away from it' if you will.
We are not meant to know certain things. I know, that if God and this universe had wanted to give me any warning or heads up as to the shocking event that rocked our world on Christmas Eve, "I" would have gotten it. That I didn't, definitely tells me I was NOT meant to know. If your advisor misses a very big event in your life it's usually because it is not in God's plan for you to know. If YOU miss a huge event and you usually have pretty good intuition, it is because it was not intended for you to know. When these things happen, we need to be at peace with Gods will. It would be easy to beat yourself up over it, or feel like your advisor let you down but it's just not the case. Simply be at peace.
Recently one of my daughters had been reading a book written by another psychic.
She knew of my own experience I am about to share, so really questioned when she read this psychics opinion that 'possession' does not exist therefore cannot occur. I would beg to differ and this is why:
About 10 years ago I had a job which required an hour commute downtown by train one way, and an hour back. I would usually use this time to meditate, pray (silently), ponder etc.
One day about a third of the way into my trip, I had my head bowed in silent prayer. As far as anyone around me knew, I was probably napping. After finishing prayer I would usually work on chakra cleansing, then open up my crown to draw in all the positive energy I possibly could and then what ever my spirit didn't absorb of the energy I would send out around me to all those in my physical area to be able to partake.
A woman came into the train at the 1/3 point and of course, even in prayer one can take in background noise etc. She sat directly behind me, back to back. As the train rolled along various people would try to interact with her but would be met with some odd remark or behavior that would cause them to find other seating. So at the end of my prayers and my chakra cleansing I did what I usually do which is to shoot out any excess positive energy around me. As I did this, I heard this woman behind me say, "Stop it! You're burning me!"
No one on the train had a clue as to whom she was addressing. At that point I didn't know it was me but I thought, I wonder.....since it happened almost simultaneously with me sending out positive energy, if it might have BEEN me. So I decide, being curious, to do it again and see if the same reaction would happen and indeed it did. Now mind you, the woman did not
look at me, didn't change positions to address me, didn't move in any way other than to once again yell out, "STOP IT! YOU ARE BURNING ME". Now I was close to being convinced that it probably was me, but to be absolutely sure I did it one more time and once again, came the same reaction. After which I was sure that in my putting positive energy out there, it was effecting her.
Eventually her stop came which was just before my own and since she never even looked at me or addressed me I was highly curious and got off at her stop. I was walking about 2 yards behind her and again, she didn't see me get off the train, and didn't look behind her at all but was screaming, "Don't FOLLOW ME" !!! I knew it was addressed to me, as I quickened my pace she also yelled out that I had "Better not burn her again". So I ran ahead of her to actually get a look at her face and her eyes were literally spinning in opposite directions in her head. As soon as I saw it I knew I had looked into the face a possessed person. I had no question about it in my mind. Having satisfied my curiosity, I hung back and watched as she crossed the street. I have no idea what her destination was and I wish I had the time to have continued to watch her and her behavior but I had to get into work.
On the way home I wondered what it was all about and I came to the following conclusions
That it is very difficult for evil to exist in positive energy. It literally creates a burning sensation. Knowing that God is in Glory (a place) I realized that the more we lived a life close to the spirit and our values the more 'light' (Gods love equally light) we can hold or withstand.
God stays in one place but where we end up depends on 'how' we live. Those who don't live up to the values we know to be true, honesty, integrity, love, kindness, compassion, etc etc
aren't able to stand in the presence of God because they would literally feel a 'burning sensation'.......which would explain why the bible describes Hell, as fire and brimstone. The more you live outside of which you know to be good and true, the further it takes you from being able to stand in the presence of the divine therefore darkness. The more we develope our light in living our values the more we are capable of containing and being 'in' communion with that light. This is why the entity inside that woman was not able to endure the positive light energy I was sending out.
Now we all know people, who just kind of glow, who really carry 'light' around with them, it just radiates and exudes. They are in a positive place, living true to their values and getting a clear channel to the divine. And conversely we have all seen people who just seem to be dark, have no soul behind their eyes.....and that doesn't mean they are possessed, just not living to the optimum of truth as they know it. Possession is different.
When I looked into the face of that woman, the thought enveloped me, in the way I've learned to know truth, that she was possessed, that there was an entity inside her that didn't belong.
There are entities in our earth experience who do want the experience of using our bodies for their means. It is my belief that the more we live outside of truth the more we leave ourselves susceptible (sort of hole in the protection around our souls or the thinning of it) for this dilemma to occur. It's hard for me to say that it can happen without our consent. In the case of the woman I encountered I felt like she 'allowed' the entity domain over her body. I don't know why, but that's what came to me. I do feel the possibility exists for it to happen beyond our control but I can't say and don't know how it would be possible or what causes it to happen.
I think those would be very very rare cases. Also, having the psych background I do, I do acknowledge that a lot of mental illness is mistakenly attributed to possession. It's been less than 100 years since people considered retardation demonic possession and we've come a long way and there are still many mental illnesses we have no direct diagnoses for that again, could be easily written off as possession. However my experience on that train that day does have me 'knowing' that there are demonic entities ready and waiting for the right unfortunate circumstances to take over our physical bodies.
Moral of the story, live your life to that which you know to be positive, pure, good and true is the best way to avoid any kind of difficulty with these matters as well as being able to grow and expand in our own spirituality and closeness with the divine.
If anyone has questions or an experience of their own to share, please feel free, I would love to read. xoxo's Bun
I haven't blogged in awhile.
I did want to address the matter of consistency.
Due to the diversity of my life, I sometimes can not stick to schedule.
People who truly are able to tune in, usually experience a bit of exhaustion after a few
readings, as we are going out above the natural earth experience to draw in info from
the astral plane, or where ever your particular advisor gets it.....be it akishic record,
channeling, medium-ship etc. It can be a bit taxing and draining.
Also, I've found that most who deal in working with energies outside the 'natural man'
tend to have more susceptibility to illness.....probably due to getting drained as stated above.
There are other commonalities too, that I tend to find humorous and will address those at
a bit later in the blog.
So even though I may have scheduled myself a full day, if early on I get a lot of callers, I'll take myself off the schedule a bit and rest. I don't want to give any caller a reading when I am feeling at all compromised and not able to tune in properly.
This is why even though I'm scheduled, a caller may not be able to reach me at that time.
I take myself off schedule. If I have a headache or flu or cold......I will remove myself as well.
I don't want an impaired vessel to pick up improperly. Like a pair of old Rabbit Ear antennae
a top a TV set and one of them is bent. Until it's straightened out I feel like I may not get a clear picture.
It would really be fun for me, to hear from other advisors about some of the anomalies that make up (in stereotypical fashion) the psychic person. A lot of folks tell me they would love
to be able to do it, but it does come with a downside in the susceptibility to illness if one doesn't pace oneself properly. Also, I was joking with a fellow Psy friend who like me tends to be a bit germaphobic and a little neurotic (always critiquing ourselves, not in the psychic realms because that comes from the divine, but in normal life) which I find to be funny.
Some of us are like sponges......deflection has to be developed, that's something I do, do well.
At one point, when I was pre menopausal, my gyno wanted to try hormone patch
(about 10 years ago) and my psychic stuff just vanished. I was astounded how dependent I had become with it, like breathing, and how difficult I found life when it was gone. I had never been anything other than who I was and what a shock to enter into 'normalcy'. I really appreciated what I had and who I was when it was gone for that short period and really wondered how the rest of the world actually could live and navigate life without it. I knew the only thing that had changed was addition of the hormone patch so I decided it had to go. As soon as it did, everything returned as it was. I didn't realize how much hormones effect the actual ability until that experience. I was amazed. So perhaps that is where we get the old adage of "Womens Intuition"? I also, wonder how many of my fellow advisors have experienced something like this. And have no clue how the male of the psi world are made up
so would love to hear from them, if the anomalies are the same or different.
I do, soooooo, love what I do. I don't want anyone to think it's a 'chore'. It really is a pleasure and I love my clients very much. I just want to do my very best for them.
Please feel free to add thoughts. I would love to hear them. xoxo's Bun
I recently got a caller for whom I read and was so very accurate with her. Hit all the markers
and after making sure I really had tuned in, began to answer her questions. I also, let her know,
as I do all my clients, that I can only read what is in the mind that moment, things tommorrow can
change on a dime but the best I could do is let her know the degree with which the energy was moving at the moment.
There are never any guarantees in life. Most people just want to hear what they want to hear and not truth. I just give it the way it comes in for better or worse. In this case, at the moment, it was news that she was hoping to get.
She called back and although things had gone as predicted, they didn't unfold in EXACTLY the way she had envisioned them. She proceeded to then scold me, complain, and 'go off' in general.
All the while I'm thinking, "It's your dime, who I am to say that it's unwise for you to spend it taking your anger out on me?" Some of the accusations she was leveling however, made me wonder if she had gotten me confused with someone else inasmuch as I had been so in the zone with her. I did my best to try to explain the nature of energy and how it works in us but she wanted to stay in the realm of her anger...to the point of taking an exasperated sigh and accusing me of laughing at her. I was astounded.
The only reason I blog about this, is that, of course, she left a one star rating and a very mean spirited review.......and then TAH DAH, what should I find out? She works as a psychic using keen!
I think all of us who work in the psychic realms here on Keen have experienced these types of individuals, who call up for the nominal amount of time allowed to be able to write a review and give a rating, then use it to sabotage, undermine or throw those of us who really are trying our best and succeeding, under the bus to divert our business to 'them'. She called twice and left horrid reviews. I've now blocked her.
This has happened to a lot of friends who are also readers on Keen, so I know I am not the only one, nor is this an isolated incident since it's happened before and liable to happen again.
Yes, indeed, it does tend to hurt our business with new clientelle sadly but what really puzzles me is, knowing 'how' the universe works with our energy....ie: what goes around comes around. You get back many times what you send out, WHY would any 'sane' individual want to do such a thing? Perhaps the lesson hasn't yet been learned.
To those who read, please know of my sincere intent to try to do my best for my clients.
To those fellow readers who have not yet encountered this person, beware. It's sad it happens but it seems to come with the job.
Bright blessings to all.
Bunny
The url to the "Celebrity Awareness Project" has changed and I will be posting it soon.
Thank you to all my regular clients who have been so good to serve and work with over this last past two years. I sincerely appreciate you all so very much.
As many of you are aware, sometimes with this gift comes a downside, for me it's migraine headaches. When they hit, or are coming I try to opt out of my schedule as fast as I can since it's does compromise me considerably. What this means is, I don't always follow my recorded schedule strictly.....and once in awhile I do take a day off.
Re: The migraines. They are hormonal as far as I can tell. I did once go on a hormone balancing regimen about ten years ago and it did help clear up the migraines but it also eradicated my psychic abilities. I found I almost could not function without them. I had no idea how heavily I relied on them for my own personal navigation through this earth life. Being psychic is like breathing for me, or so I found out with that experience. I decided I would rather put up with the headaches and be able to be 'me' completely so opted out of the regimen.
All of the above happened before I came out of the closet to do readings in a public way.
OTHER STUFF:
This last year I had the horrid experience of having a stalker. This individual went so far as to get into my personal life so deeply that she would have friends call into my lines at Keen, stay on long enough to rate me, and then give scathing ratings and feedback. I asked Keen to help deal with it but although they could do something about her sabotage their wasn't much they could do about her getting people to call in since unlike her, they didn't have a police record to reference to remove the bad feedback. Needless to say, bad feedback ALWAYS effects how many calls I get. Although, the activity has leveled off a bit it is still happening from time to time. So please keep in mind when reading through my feedback remarks that I have had to deal with this difficult situation and take into consideration the malice and damage trying to be done here, without REAL just cause. As time goes by I am hoping this person will lose their focus on me and find something better to do. Generally, I am spot on with few exceptions in my readings. If I find I am getting off base I am always willing to make ammends with free minutes...as my regular clients will attest. Thanks to those who have supported me through this and I hope those who are considering me as an advisor will take this situation into consideration.
Much Thanks and Happy Regards
Bunny
Just a day in MY humble life.......
Church and Children
As you'll find out through all these experiences, my husband is pretty dozey. This was back when my oldest Daniel was barely five, Natalie, had just turned three and I had a new born Jillian to deal with.
Our church meetings were at 8:30 in the mornings at that time so it was a REAL struggle for me to try to get all the kids ready (and myself) and get there on time. I hesitated to ask my husband for help because he'd always screw things up like putting their clothes on backwards, mismatching their shoes and socks, bathing them and then feeding them so they'd get all goopy again....and also, after bathing them forgetting to dry them off so their clothes would stick to them....BUT I was at my wits end and on my last nerve so HAD to resort for asking for his help. And I lectured him and wrote down notes on how to do things the right way and not mess up.
AMAZINGLY, 8:15 rolled around and everyone was ready to go on time.......the kids were fed and bathed (dried so their clothes didn't stick to them), shoes and socks matched, clothes on the right way, hair combed, teeth brushed....I was shocked and relieved all at once!
Daniel looked so cute in his little shirt and tie and Nat a little doll in her pinafore dress......
So we all get to church and we sit near the front where the only seats were left by the time we got there.
I was soooooo enjoying church.....the peace, the quiet, and I just felt sooooooo relaxed.
When all of a sudden, Natalie stood up on the bench, in her cute little pinafored dress and shouts at the top of her lungs while hiking up her dress for all to see:
"LOOK MOM, DAD FORGOT TO PUT PANTIES ON ME!"
My first Blog. I have been heavily involved in a project I created called the "Celebrity Awareness Project".
I know quite a few of these folks and ran into so many fakes, phonies and imposters using their good names, images and personnas, I knew something had to be done to promote public safety, particularly after having gotten a mail from someone who had told me their niece had been lured into a physical meeting with one of their favorite celebs, which turned out to be a poser and ended up in rape, I began this odyssey and it's growing. I now have five staff members total. It's a lot of hard work but well worth it.
I've also read for many of these celebs, who knew of my talents for some time but helped me come out of the 'closet' and start doing it more formally. Due to their very public careers they are very private about what many of their public might consider 'occult' so do not reveal such, they really understood MY position with staying 'in' the broom closet.......yet, I had nothing to lose and everything to gain by extending myself and being of help and service to even more people who need what I do as much as they have.
So it's to them I dedicate this Blog. Were it not for them I would probably not have had the great blessing and privilege of meeting so many wonderful people here with Keen and finding my true souls purpose.
Love to all
xoxo's Bunny