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“I’m driven by a consciousness that is stronger than me, guided to inspire and empower people who have the courage to reach their full potential, because people who reach their full potential are happier and that translates to a happier planet.”__Rain

Hi,
Wanted to let you know I'm booked through Saturday with clients.  The appoinment scheduler here seems to mess up on me so I suggest scheduling via your Keen email with me, here's how:
1) Get in line with the arrange a call back by getting in line first with a call back time extended out for 7 days minimum (I suggest 14 days).  
2) Email your preferred appointment time, AM or PM, date of appointment, and number of minutes you want the call to last (that's important as I keep a tight schedule). 
3) Look for my response in your Keen mail inbox.  I will accept your time or suggest another if I'm already booked. (warning: this process can take a few days at this time so odds of scheduling an appointment same day or even within two days of your initial request are slim)
4) At the time we've agreed upon via our Keen Mail communications I will initiate the call back.  Unfortunately if you are not available to answer your phone and accept the call at that time I have no way of re-initiating as Keen's system does not provide a service for that and we would have to start the whole process over again.

That said, I will initiate the call at the exact time or within 10 minutes of the time we were supposed to start depending on my previous client call end time.  Even though I keep a buffer between clients, I do run a bit late sometimes when clients are in the middle of a question or I am in the middle of answering their question;  I do not like to cut people off.

Hope this helps you with scheduling an appointment.
Monday 4/1/2012 I have a few openings in the AM and the PM.  All times are Mountain Standard time.  
Thursday and Friday are booked full for the week of 4/2- 4/6 I have AM appointments available 4/7 no PM.
Not available on Keen Thursdays or Sundays.
Week of 4/9- 4/14 also has appointments available.
The further out you request your appointment the more likely I'm available.  Typically I've got appointments on the books 2 weeks in advance at all times. 
Hope we can get you fit in somewhere.
I look forward to reading for you,
Susi Q Rain ,-)

Important notes:
You must have full funds in your account at the start of your call, any interuptions by the computer system requesting you to add funds to continue the call will result in termination of the call on my end.
I do my best to keep my scheduled appointments and request that you do too.  If you have scheduled an appointment with me and miss it I will send you an email inquiring if you would like to reschedule.  If you miss two scheduled appointments I will not reschedule you for 30 days.  If you miss a third scheduled appointment I will no longer schedule appointments for you.

Watch for future blog posts that will announce my radio and television appearances as they occur.
aka: Rain
Psychic Susi Q Rain: Seer Healer Sage Muse and Master Manifester
Rain Bringer of Life
Rain Bringer of Light

 

2/27/2012 4:00:35 PM
I don’t know about you but I’m ready to stop the hit or miss availability.  If you’ve wanted to talk but can’t catch me on Keen, or wait when I’m on ‘alerts’ but don’t get a call back, it’s because I’m booked in advance with private clients.  Last night as, I lay down to sleep; I underwent an inspiring intensive spontaneous healing by angels and blue surgeon light beings.  They’ve infused more knowledge to share and asked me to extend the reach of their mission to heal and uplift humanity.  They’ve requested that I read for more private clients as a precursor to a world tour that will promote World Wide Water Day 12/22, an all-day annual global event intended to trigger a supercritical mass consciousness shift; which is my life’s purpose.  I was told I would be given all the energy to accommodate these readings.  This is what has compelled me to reach out to Keen clients and new Keen referrals, from you, on a regular basis.  There are three dates and time slots this week available to accept your appointment requests.  I will only log on to accept appointments as of this mailing, if you see me on ‘alerts’ odds are it’s simply to alert me that a client is wanting to schedule an appointment or I may have a cancelation in my private practice that allows for a brief opening. 

AVAILABILITY DATES AND TIMES THIS WEEK ARE AS FOLLOWS:
Follow this link to schedule your appointment:
http://www.keen.com/appointments/request.asp?sid=6873760 
Monday 2/27/2012  6:00 – 9:00 MST that’s 5:00 – 8:00 PST or 8:00 – 11:00 EST all times are PM
Tuesday 2/28/2012  9:00 – 12:00 PM MST, that’s 8:00 – 11:00 PM PST or 11:00PM – 2:00AM EST Thursday 3/1/2012  9:00 – 12:00 AM MST, that’s 8:00 – 11:00 AM PST or 11:00 AM – 2:00 PM EST CANCELED DUE TO RADIO ENGAGEMENT:
oN Air: 7-8 AM Hawaii Standard time
http://www.island985.com also available on the iHeartRadio Island Style Reggae listen on your phone or computer get the iHeartRadio app early to tune in or use this link http://www.iheart.com/#/live/821/?autoplay=true
A Clear Channel Station, Cheeehooo I'm so excited. 

“I’m driven by a consciousness that is stronger than myself to inspire and empower people who have the courage to  reach their full potential, because people who reach their full potential are happier and that translates to a happier planet.”
–Psychic Susi Q Rain: Seer Healer Sage Muse and Master Manifester

I don’t do email or chat.
If you would like to be removed from this mailing list please send a reply email with ‘remove’ in the subject line. 
From now on I will post the dates and times I’m available on Keen in one Sunday or Monday email to this list only.  If you have friends you would like to refer that wish to be added to this list please have them send an email request with the words ‘Add to list’ in the subject.

Many Blessings,
“Here’s to sprinkling a bit of refreshing Rain into your world.”
Rain ,-)

Follow this link to schedule appointment:
http://www.keen.com/appointments/request.asp?sid=6873760

Susan J Alexander, Visionary 


‎"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." Dr. Martin Luther King
In process of finding out the necessary steps to organize a civil rights march in Washington DC and other capitols nationally. "10,000 maybe more" and the wolrd will hear us "people talking without speaking" for in our silence are many words! I'm F@#!ING SCREAMING, is anyone hearing me yet?

Sound Of Silence Art Garfunkel

The other Sound of Silence videos pale in comparison to this message. Please take the time to watch it on YouTube!

"Because a vision softly creeping left its seeds while I was" AWAKE!
"And the vision that was planted in my brain, still remains" but it’s not silent!

Winter Solstice December 21-22
"And on this dark mid winters day, this longest day of night; comes to us a winter gift the spirit of the LIGHT" __Author Unknown

"When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light that split the night and touched the sound of silence. And in the naked light I saw 10,000 people, maybe more. People talking without speaking, people hearing without listening" they're holding giant flash cards above their heads so the helicopters can read the undeniable message of "we the people" and we peaceably assemble to serve presentments by a Grand Jury of the people to the individuals who have defamed America and the world with their corruption along with all who have given these criminals "special support and different rules" because we can, it is written in the constitution and the bill of rights. When the government and the system becomes infiltrated with corrupt individuals who stop the good within the system from maintaining the rights of "domestic tranquility" and "blessings of liberty," when the judicial system no longer can be trusted to do their job "we the people" have an inalienable right and duty to step up, create our own jury and serve presentments to hold those responsible accountable, to separate the wheat from the chafe; those elected who are not chafe will come forward and offer their assistance, those judges and good people who have been silenced will speak out and Americans and the world will rejoice because we will have regained our "domestic tranquility" and our "blessings of liberty" and this silent coalition will grow around the globe. The "money changers" will change or we will change "money changers."
World Wide Water Day 12 22 - A Supercritical Mass Consciousness Shift [1] [2]
Is a coalition of individuals willing to spend at least 4.8 seconds in silence infusing the waters of the world with the meanings of these six words:
Truth, Remembrance, Beauty, Grace, Love and Gratitude.
Thoughts are things; in 1993 the Transindental Meditation Washington DC Project held a meditation to reduce crime, nearly 4,000 meditated over an 8 week period the astonishing statistics are recorded. The maximum decrease in violent crimes during this time was nearly 25%. The maximum reduction occurred when the maximum number of mediators were present. Note that the criminals were not practicing meditation and had no idea that it was happening.
Now imagine a global effort on one full day every year: December 22, 12:00 AM - December 23, 12:00 AM, people infusing water with six heartfelt conscious thoughts. Do it while brushing your teeth or showering or in a gathering. Water the largest conduit and necessary to sustain life, "Imagine all the people living life with ease, you, Oooo, you may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join up and the world will live as one."
The worlds been silent for far too long! "Silence like a cancer grows. Hear my words that I might teach you, take my arms that I might reach you." I hope, "my words," are not "like silent raindrops."
P E A C E N O W,
Susi Q Rain: Seer.Healer.Sage.Muse and Master Manifester ;-)
Manifesting a free spirited world; can you help?

This post forwarded to Art Garfunkel's email. An interesting July 2000 interview with him can be found by following this link:
http://www.artgarfunkel.com/articles/telegraph.html
"I suppose deep down I wish I could now put out another major chapter. If somebody says, 'You brought back so many wonderful memories in your concert,' it would not be my favorite compliment. 'You've still got it' would."

Respect to Mr. Garfunkel, kudos.

Sound of Silence: Art Garfunkel

Hello darkness, my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
'Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence

"Fools", said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you"
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls"
And whispered in the sounds of silence

_______

For the people, my children and all future generations,
Susi Alexander, Visionary

Truth, Remembrance, Beauty, Grace, Love, Gratitude

 



[1] World Wide Water Day 12 22 The Event  http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=149363758461282
[2] World Wide Water Day 12 22 The Page http://www.facebook.com/WorldWideWaterDay1222

 World Wide Water Day 12 22

Location: It starts with your thoughts: See More Info
Time: ‎12:00AM Thursday, December 22nd
 

Please take a minute and commit to the most auspicious event ever thought of or planned for improving the quality of all life; attend this event.  World Wide Water Day 12 22 is a free event held annually but you can attend daily if you like.

 

Show your support by posting this event to your page and asking your friends to attend. 

There are close to 7 Billion (7,000,000,000) people on Earth, imagine what will happen when even a quarter of those people (1,750,000,000) participated in this event. 

 

World Wide Water Day 12 22 is in progress of forging alliances to form a coalition with people around globe to monitor the progress, support and molecular changes of the waters. If you would like to be involved or know an individual or group you think might wish to help please email Rain@WorldWideWaterDay.com or private message here on Facebook.

 

Remember the strength of a mustard seed?

 

1 Corinthians 13:2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

 

<3 This event is prophesied: it will restore LOVE for all life based on the TRUTH and REMEMBRANCE of life’s connectedness, knowledge of the importance to express GRATITUDE for the simple BEAUTY and subtle movements of the unparalleled state of GRACE all life coexists in. <3    

Susi Q Rain: Seer.Healer.Sage.Muse and Master Manifester

It is now early AM 3/25, I have not slept well and I cannot write I'll go do things to bring back my PEACE and my SMILE.

6:30 PM - I've done many things today that have brought peace to me and others as well as a SMILE yet there lingers the thoughts below:

Today I have lost money, my frown has been around although I've tried to turn it upside down ;-)  a bit of time passes and it rolls back round into that nasty darned old frown. 

After much pondering I know what is needed to restore that smile once and for all.  Never mind the past three days loss of income (Tuesday my youngest arrived from the main land after not seeing him for 6 months), no worries about how to pay the necessities being a sole provider for myself and 3 boys requires, continue to lift the needy friends who have sunk into deep depression, cuddle the child who's just arrived from the mainland, speak to the other who is lonely, reach out through the airways and give voice to the one attached to the old at such a huge distance its impossible to physically touch at this time.  Cast off the negative energy that was directed through mean spirited feedback but what about the other clients and friends who read that, they know the truth, I know the truth, still it was done with intent to harm and it has.  So the pondering brought me here to write about The Words For It....

Just now the words come to me in full song: Smile though your heart is aching, smile though you feel like breaking, smile and the whole world smiles with you.....

An Idea BREAKS and shakes my frown back to a SMILE; I gift you this video and the lyrics:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iu-rLA4POkI

Smile
Smile though your heart is aching;
Smile even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by.
If you smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness.
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.

Lyrics by John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons.
Music written by Charlie Chaplin, 1936.

 

10:30 AM 3/26/2010 Hawaii time - However, that's not the right song,  so I looked again I needed more sunshine, I needed more pick myself up and shake myself off.  The sadness I dispel from people all day long has taxed me more than usual, the energy to hold my space and the space for so many others has taken more than I've been able to cultivate due to time constraints with demands on my attention from family and friends.   The Quiet Solitude I am accustomed to carving out so my service to clients LOVE to all is pure and balanced has not come easily.  I seek out the word's, "The Whole World Smiles With You!!!"

Ahhhh ;-)  Here they are along with a video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wsO1hpNky8M

 

WHEN YOU'RE SMILING

When you're smilin', when you're smilin'
The whole world smiles with you
When you're laughin', when you're laughin'
The sun comes shinin' through

But when you're cryin', you bring on the rain
So stop that cryin', be happy again
Keep on smilin', 'cause when you're smilin'
The whole world smiles with you

When you're smilin', when you're smilin'
The whole world, it smiles with you
When you're laughin', oh babe, when you're laughin'
The sun would-a come shining through

But when you're cryin', you bring on the rain
So stop that sighin', come on and be happy again
Keep on smilin', 'cause when you're smilin', baby
The whole world smiles with you


Yes, this is the one... but what about the heart ache and the feel like breaking?  Smile though the world is quaking, smile though you feel like shaking, smile and the world smiles too??  Oh! I see it is one of those other songs I wrote in my head, you know the kind where you mix a whole bunch of known with the unknown to create something new and exciting.  I'm excited because I never heard the verse about "when you're cryin', you bring on the RAIN so stop that cryin', and be happy again.  Keep on smilin', cause when you're smilin', THE WHOLE WORLD SMILES WITH YOU!!!
I'm smiling now!  and the poor sky is so mixed up it doesn't quite know what to do, there are rain clouds just as there were yesterday when I started to write this blog on Thursday because on Wednesday I got FLAMED by an ill willed client and this  brought on fever that burned me with much sadness at her mean spiritedness.  That same mean spiritedness that STOPS her from obtaining her desires.  It poured rain Wednesday night, it always rains when I cry!!!

Anyway the reason for this blog is to bring an awareness to all that music can heal as well as kill and that words can also heal as well as kill.  I knew I needed the poem Words For It by Julia Cameron, she is a creative to be admired and I do admire her along with her works. This poem is in her book titled The Artists Way and I use this book when teaching my Art of Manifesting Course, I also used this poem on the Thank You notes that were sent out after my husbands celebration of life. It, the poem Words For It, is fitting for my situation at this time and was fitting for my husbands death since life became to much for him to bare so he opted out of his own free will.  Words For It, Sooth and Daub Where Fever Blisters and Burns...I looked for it because there was/is a need/desire to have another do as I do for others so much of the time; a need to have others use their words to sooth and daub me, to heal my wounds from the words that I have no names for.  Here is that much loved poem, may you find as much P E A C E  in it as I have ;-)
 
 Words For It


I wish I could take language
And fold it like cool, moist rags.
I would lay words on your forehead.
I would wrap words on your wrists.
"There, there," my words would say --
Or something better.
I would ask them to murmur,
"Hush" and "Shh, shhh, it's all right."
I would ask them to hold you all night.
I wish I could take language
And daub and soothe and cool
Where fever blisters and burns,
Where fever turns yourself against you.
I wish I could take language
And heal the words that were the wounds
You have no names for.

- Julia Cameron


I will be available to take your calls consistently again Sunday afternoon so please arrange your calls for after 1:00PM Hawaii time 3/28/2010.  Until then I am HEALING me, I'll be going to the Ocean, the Beach, the quiet solitary spots where I can find my PEACE again and balance out so that flames don't burn, and words don't wound, and get in touch with my Goddess self once again.
I wish you all pure LOVE and look forward to helping soon. 

Anyone wanting to leave positive feedback to counter act the NEGTAIVE <a href="http://www.keen.com/categories/feedbackoverall.asp?FeedbackName=RainHHinc+37yrs+Exp+Mindreaderfeedback> that "Hopefloats08" </a> left after her 4 minute phone call is welcome to do so.  There may also be a few times between now and Sunday that you will catch me here to do some readings, I do have a family to care for, I am human and this is my Professional Career that Hopefloats08 intentionally set out to harm.  The laws of Manifestation depict that anger/fear or negative emotions manifest much faster than positive and so her manifestation came to fruition fast, she was successful - I have been hurt; this has been a catalyst to a positive and a lesson in the Art of Manifesting which I will leave you with:

On Island (Oahu) and else where it is said "No Worries."  There is far more meaning in those two words than "it's all good" or "it doesn't matter." Adopt this phrase "No Worries" and GET IT!  The true meaning in the greater scheme of things there really are no worries, when shit hits the fan or there is chaos injected into the order of things it is to make way for a new order which can only come out of mixing up the old.  There truly are NO WORRIES when the ART OF MANIFESTING is at hand!  I'm manifesting a new life in Hawaii one without negative influences and only positive people are allowed.  There is an abundance of wealth in all its aspects monetary and the non-tangible energy transference from interaction with life.

Get it? NO WORRIES!! ;-)  This too shall pass and the world will be a better place because of it.

The new order is that now I have two of my sons on island with me, the energy must be adjusted and balanced.  I'm off to do just that and HEAL me because I must be able to heal myself and MANIFEST my own world if I am to help you, which I do; DAILY ;-)

Cheers to No Worries, finding The Words For It, SMILING, and sprinkling a bit of cool refreshing RAIN into your world,
Susi Q Rain: Seer.Healer.Sage.Muse and Master Manifester ;-)

I hope you ENJOYED my post, please leave you feedback and any comments here.

 

 

Have you heard via the Coconut Hotline?  Rumor has it "SHE'S THE REAL DEAL"   Rain's reputation preceeds her, she is all of the following and so much more:

SEER ♥ HEALER ♥ SAGE ♥ MUSE ♥ MASTER MANIFESTER


Seer: One who sees past, present and future
Clair-Everything: see Clair Abilities below
Sage: Knows without explanation as to why, she even knows your questions before you ask them often times before you are aware you are going to ask them. So her readings are fast! Have a pen and paper ready.
Muse: The ancient art of sitting for IDEAS.  RAIN sovles problems and completes concepts, she tells you what steps to take to reach your goals
Master Manifester:  THE ART OF MANIFESTING a 12 week course.  The SECRET is a GREAT source on the LAW OF ATTRACTION but there is much more to mastering the art of manifesting your world.  3 levels available; beginer, intermediate, and advanced.  You need more material and media than the SECRET but it's a good start, Rain directs you to that media and guides you forward to the next level.  FORWARD is good, forward thinking, forward seeing, forward speaking; always looking forward to the next moment while enjoying and being present in the present, knowing it's AMAZING.  Feeling PHENOMINALLY HAPPY regardless of any discomforts in the present, simply FEEL GOOD and you will make it so."

Clair Abilities - There are psychics who use their senses more then the average person can, these are “Clair’s” there are three main categories of this and some that are not as much recognized. The three main ones are clairvoyant, clairaudient and clairsentience. The Clair part of the word actually means clear. So clairvoyant – clear seeing, clairaudient – clear hearing and Clair sentience – clear sense.

Clairvoyance – Clear Seeing. This does not mean that they have sight of the future or past, like seers (RAIN is a SEER); however they sometimes can give information into your future or past by visioning an incident or scene. Clairvoyance is associated with the 6th Chakra known as the 3rd eye. Clairvoyants are able to see places, people, words, or objects within the minds eye; they read for people by describing to them what it is that they can see. They also have the abilities to see auras, guides and other energies. They do not see like we do physically in 3-D form but rather like a vision or a dream.  Images just appear within their mind. Visions can appear as if they are watching a movie or may be still images like a photograph. Occasionally the clairvoyant feels as if they are actually there physically and watching the scene.  RAIN places all visions into a bubble and views it from ALL angles seeking out the details such as times, dates, day, seasons, she can view through the clients eyes or through her own like a ghost whisper she can see and walk through things that are distanct from her RAIN calls this REMOTE VIEWING (RV) although she has never studied RV.

Clairaudience – Clear Hearing. This means that they have the ability to hear information and things that are not actually near them; such as voices, tones, bells, music, song and other types of sound. They receive information from spirits, which could be the spirit of a loved one who is being read for or it could be spirit guides. Some clairaudients hear these voices on a physical level whilst others hear the voice in their head. Some skeptics often argue that it is all within their imagination. However, these words come to clairaudients at such a fast rate that they wouldn’t have time to think of these words themselves even if they wanted to. These people are often misjudged as to “hear voices” is sometimes thought of as to be crazy or even schizophrenic. Some clairaudients pick up on conversations when there is no one near them or within hearing distance. RAIN'S abilities as a SEER allow her to not only view the past and future but also to HEAR PAST PRESENT AND FUTURE regardless of where it is in existance.

Clairsentience – Clear Sense. This is where the person feels or senses things. This can be emotional feelings or feeling physical pain that has occurred.  This is the ability to feel what others can feel.


Clariscentist – Clear Scent. These are people who are able to smell fragrances, or substances that are not near them. This can include perfumes, smoke, alcohol, food, coffee and so on.

Clairgustant – Clear Taste. These people are able to taste substances without even putting anything in their mouth. This could be cigarettes, food or drink. Sometimes the person will drink water or something with no taste in order to pick up/receive tastes from a person that they are reading.

Claircognizant – Clear Recognition. People often confuse this with clairsentience. This is the ability to know something, no-one tells them and it is not something that they’ve read before, they just simply know it. It is an inner feeling, gut feeling, something which is just known. They have an ability to answer questions and back them up with facts; when before they did not know anything.  This to RAIN is like the SAGE they just know they will know what they need to know when they need to know it so they do not FEAR the unknown.

There is no Clair catagory yet - Clear Touch.  RAIN has the ability to feel She calls it Clairfeeling: and states she can feel texture of objects by running her "etheric" body over it or finger tips.  When describing blankets or clothing she can "feel" the texture like silk vs. denim or sand paper vs. KleenX tissues.

In addition to these abilities RAIN is a HEALER:  Rain has an uncanny ability to lay her hands on others, gentley massage them or run her fingers over their body often times not even touching them to heal what ailes them.  She does this remotely as well for people who are miles away on different continents.  Here ENERGY is calming & Healing as many clients have shared. 
      Very much connected..I feel her engery all around me. I have been having mult. issues since March and I just need free..typing this a warm blanket feels upon my back like I am being healed. Thank you and to you others reading this if you want total truth and wisdom call her. This one is real.. 
     "Funny I placed a warm fuzzy pink blanket around her because she was ill and needed nurturing.  I heated it and wraped it around her, I don't remember where she was in the world but a nice girl.  I gave her LOVE.  That's what I heal with LOVE pure of the SOURCE."  RAIN commented after reading the above clients FEEDBACK one of many complimentary attestments to her abilities.

M A N I F E S T I N G unlimited abundance suggest this page & this link show your support: contact RAIN on Keen for a reading the first 3 minutes are free follow this link http://www.keen.com/calls/PT_interimcall.asp?sid=6873760 or call: +1-800-275-5336 x01893537
 
Aloha and Mahalo 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ePDkUVH3MXQ

 

sometimes I stay up late at night just looking for music and odd things.  This struck me as of importance in a unique dilivery, watch it to the end.

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I am offering a discounted rate to the first 100 people to sign up for my Art of Manifesting class.  This cut will be a 250 dollar savings off the original 750 cost for the 12 week class. 

Is your life difficult?  "In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity." -- Albert Einstein

Learning the Art of Manifesting does not elliminate all difficulty but it turns the kolidascope just enough to always recognize the opportunity for a more harmonious existance and gives one a consistantly better view.   You have nothing to lose and your world to gain for a mere $500 dollars.  You spend that in a day often times seeking answers outside of self and asking others to manifest your world for you.  I offer you this:  Give a man a manifestation and change his world once, teach a man to manifest and he can create what ever he imagines  Let me TEACH you.

Rain: Seer.Healer.Sage.Muse ;-) and Master Manifester
call tonight or tomorrow and inquire about the details or drop me an email.  I look forward to creating a more harmonious world with you.

I've often times been called or described as being Naive or having child like qualities from people who love me and are not attempting to hurt my feelings, they pad it with, "that's why I love you." 
 
Naive to the world of can't, shouldn't and judegements...
Naive to the belief that I must conform! Conform to what?  Source exist for experience only, "there is only one rule and that is that there are NO RULES!"  Life only has one purpose to flurish freely, "LIFE KNOWS NO BOUDRIES!"  These are my own innate understandings and phrases I've coined if you repeat them please quote me and give credit to my full name: Susi Q Rain: Seer.Healer.Sage.Muse ;-) and Master Manifester
 
I manifest my world freely and it's a wonderful life:  My manifestations come through daily many times and there are verifiable accounts of feats that are not small common occurances.  I equate this to some of my Naivety, I believe I can manifest whatever I want and am willing to do my part as directed by Source to bring it into this material world.  Free from the moralistic, societal, man made law, opinions, and nay sayers boundries.  With a pure heart I manifest my perfect world and share it openly with everyone who enters free of negetivity.   Enter into my world and I will gladly show you the limitless wonders All that Exists or Ever Will has to offer YOU as gifted by Source.
 
Naive: 
adjective
1. having or showing unaffected simplicity of nature or absence of artificiality; unsophisticated; ingenuous.
2. having or showing a lack of experience, judgment, or information; credulous: She's so naive she believes everything she reads. He has a very naive attitude toward politics.
3. having or marked by a simple, unaffectedly direct style reflecting little or no formal training or technique: valuable naive 19th-century American portrait paintings.
4. not having previously been the subject of a scientific experiment, as an animal.
 
Naive a defiition:
Synonyms: These adjectives mean free from guile, cunning, or sham. Naive sometimes connotes a credulity that impedes effective functioning in a practical world: "this naive simple creature, with his straightforward and friendly eyes so eager to believe appearances" (Arnold Bennett).
Simple stresses absence of complexity, artifice, pretentiousness, or dissimulation: "Those of highest worth and breeding are most simple in manner and attire" (Francis Parkman). "Among simple people she had the reputation of being a prodigy of information" (Harriet Beecher Stowe).
Ingenuous denotes childlike directness, simplicity, and innocence; it connotes an inability to mask one's feelings: an ingenuous admission of responsibility.
Unsophisticated indicates absence of worldliness: the astonishment of unsophisticated tourists at the tall buildings.
Natural stresses spontaneity that is the result of freedom from self-consciousness or inhibitions: "When Kavanagh was present, Alice was happy, but embarrassed; Cecelia, joyous and natural" (Henry Wadsworth Longfellow).
Unaffected implies sincerity and lack of affectation: "With men he can be rational and unaffected, but when he has ladies to please, every feature works" (Jane Austen).
Guileless signifies absence of insidious or treacherous cunning: a guileless, disarming look.
Artless stresses absence of plan or purpose and suggests unconcern for or lack of awareness of the reaction produced in others: a child of artless grace and simple goodness.

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/Naive
 
Naive keeps my CREATIVE IMAGINATION ALIVE!!
Without this no on can become a master or a genuis. I am both and available to teach this skill to all who posses the commitment to self and pure desire to succeed in life according to thier own definition of success.  Feel free to email or call me anytime.  Arrange a call if I am unavailabe and allow 24 hours for me to respond.  I have a good, solid reptation among those who interact with me and my skills are reveared around the world.  I am subtle, honest, sweet, kind and a truely gifted being who walks the path Source has asked me to in service with a sincere heart to heal the world one life at a time. 
Reading this blog post or looking at my picture may be enough for you to glean any message I may have for you and recieve a healing of Source enegy, if however you feel it necessary to speak with me I would be honored to assist.
Much Aloha,
Rain: Seer.Healer.Sage.Muse ;-) and Master Manifester
(I am on Oahu and in the Hawaii Time zone fyi)
 

 
Here's to sprinkling a bit of refreshing Rain into your world...

The following is an open letter to my friend and is full of pearls if you have the eyes to see.  There are the joys of parenting, the little known intracacies of a start up company, the beauty that I attempt to surround myself with so that I can project that out into the world tomorrow, recommended reading and the connection to the other side.  These are some keys to manifesting real life so it happens...
 
Do you have the eyes to see and if you read it out loud the ears to hear?
 
Read the Rantings...
 
Hey Colleeni ;-)
 
Hang in, on and about...you're doing fine!  Your a Fighter and a Winner.  Keep breathing I'm doing the same.   Oh........sorry to hear about Pat not being up to par, hope she fixes it and pulls out of it.  May be though that she wants to join Allen, that happens.
 
Who is creating salsa and what is it like, can we each get a sample? 
 
Bruce Crane called me today and left a message, I'll have to get back to him tomorrow.  He said some very large investors who go around backing companies like Montana Mommas are interested in helping.  They want a sample ASAP.  I believe based on the his message the following:  They are the people who started Earthbound Farms in Carmel Valley.  Its a huge herb, lettuce and other produce company that sells nationally.  I believe Earthbound Farms started out as 2 acres and a couple of "earthy/hippy" couples who had a vision and a dream, not unlike you and I.  They are mostly an organic company if not completely.  Some how these investors are or were affiliated with that company along with others that Bruce didn't mention.  I guess they have had some salsa and have had recent contact today with Bruce inquiring about the processing, distribution and backing for Montana Mommas.  They could piggyback the salsa on something else they are already doing or get someone new to get moving on it now.  They are in the industry but more importantly they are in business together as a group of Venture Capitalists with the necessary captital to launch this well.  They fund according to product worthiness and what they think will make it.  It is a risk to them as well because they could loose their investment.  I believe you know all this already so I won't explain further.  That's all I know from the message.  He just added he felt it was a real good opportunity to get it moving fast because they have the money to back it and the ins in the industry.  I'll keep you informed as this unfolds.
 
That's wonderful Jessie came home to visit you today, gotta love it when the kids come home.  Austin came home last night, I turned around thinking I was going to be greeting Tyler and there was my Austin ;-)  Yeah!!! Wow!!!  What a hansom boy we (Me and Chris) made.  He and Kayleah visited for a few hours and then left to her moms house where they are staying.  I don't know if they are staying for good or going back.  They are talking about work.  Tucker wants a job and Spencer I don't think ever wants a job, he, he, he, he :- P  They came back up tonight and ate.  I'm smiling!
 
Glad you've finally discovered the wonder and beauty of a computer, the world is basically at your finger tips.  It can suck you in though so the best thing to do is stay on task as far as research goes.  Pick one topic and stick to it for the day, you'll be amazed at the various points of view, approaches and sources of information available.  That will broaden your horizons. 
 
Cooney, the friendship lake house!  Good place to go and you can get a phone line.  Peaceful is what I get, you'll have and be at peace. 
 
Chris came home today too.  He came in and rubbed my shoulders as only my Chris can do then he whispered into my ear, "Hello my beautiful wife." 
 
I have to pause........................
 
I can't express how that feels Good is just emptiness in words.   I have to fill it with it was refreshing, comforting, familiar, WONDERFUL!  He is around still and told me he's here to protect me, lift me up and be with me.  He's here to hold my hand and everything is going to be OKAY.  I'm in Heaven, I'm in Heaven and I can't believe my eyes can barely hold all the beauty I Behold.
I'm smiling and nothing can make it go away. 
I talked to Tucker this evening and he ecstatically exclaimed, "I saw him too!"  His response was very animated and pleasantly surprised that I'd seen him too, as though a confirmation had been observed.  Again, I can't not smile ;-)
 
Some more news about THE SALSA:  A woman got a hold of and ate your salsa several months ago.  She is in the Dear Lodge area and obtained it from Les Schwab, kudos to you Colleeni!  She's been searching for it ever since until the other day she did this search on the Internet for Montana Mommas and it yielded my blog on Keen.com where she promptly found me and emailed me on how to get more.  I thought you would enjoy hearing about this.  I wrote her back and told her the scoop along with what to watch for and where to watch for it.  I told her the website would be up in about a month and to look for locations listed there that would name each location Montana Mommas Salsa is sold. 
Oh and Roland called me from the Ronan Kitchen.  I told him I would get him paid no later than next Tuesday.  He actually wants to charge me to dispose of the salsa I put into freeze, I told him I would be up to get it myself.  I'm going to dump those cases because unless you put the salsa into your own freezer safe containers it seperates, our current 16oz containers aren't freezer safe.  I questioned him about 2 pallets in the freezer and 6 in dry storage that I've been charged for, I only have 1 and 4 respectively.  He said he would have to recount.  Yea, I'll be going there on Wednesday to make stuff different.  I need to get on with that Non-disclosure to Craig so I can see if he will come in with a good price or if we will be stuck in negotiations for several more weeks until we come to an agreement.  Crazy this Food Industry is, stick-to-it-ivness is a must.
 
So what else can I tell you.  I like my clients, most of them anyway.  Some aren't clients at all just the random user, wanna-be, abusive psychic bash-er wanting a free call.  These callers go around destroying or damaging advisers ratings and feedback by leaving 1 star.  I haven't quite figured out the mentality but the pattern is prevalent, they call ask a question then change what they want to ask then complain about other readers and finally hang up after 3-4 minutes.  I guess they might get a refund if they leave 1 star and request it but I'm not certain on that one.  Some might say, "you're psychic shouldn't you know that?"  No, its wishy washy and needs further investigation.  Psychic is like that too in that what is shown is for you to act upon!  It is information just like asking another experts advice, using the Internet to research or the local library along with any other source of information available.  Anyway be forewarned about this predictable behavior and don't let it get to you.  The feedback is so totally inaccurate when it comes to making choices of who to call on Keen.com it is much better to just use your own intuition.  Its always intuition that drives or draws a customer to seek out a Seer, Healer, Sage, Muse, Shaman, Witch, Church, Prophet, Psychic or the same by any other name.  I tell you this because I may see you here using your skills and enjoying the, sometimes long talks with clients.  You know the kind of talks you and I had for so many years...morning coffee ;-)
 
Oh and I spent yesterday down at the river again with Tucker, Louie, and Will.  Great little sandy beach nestled in the soft river rock shore and surrounded by a log jam of drift wood.  We have a new log float and there is a current that goes up stream so you can swim up and catch the rapids down then angle towards the shore to swim up again, cool exercise equipment.  I swam, sun bathed, took a couple calls and read.  I started reading "Walking in the World" by Julia Cameron and signed the contract at the beginning of it.  Great Author!  She helped me through Chris' last attack of anxiety and got me journalling again in July of 2006.  I needed to have those journals prior to loosing him.  I couldn't have made it through with out you and those "morning pages" which were often afternoon or burning the midnight hours pages.  That first book and companion journal is "The Artists Way,"  I've read it two or more times now, its well worn and written in.  Great book I recommend to anyone. It holds you accountable for you and makes you take action or quit the blame, I really like and enjoy it!  Wish I could get more people to read them it would help balance things out in the world, your "mustard seed" and my "one person can move a mountain" theory.
 
So it is 12:36AM and I may actually get in bed early tonight ;-)  again a big smile.
I'm so happy!
 
Love,
Rain
aka
Susi Q
 
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TO SLEEP PER CHANCE TO DREAM...
The sands of time have been swirling around me like a twister out of control.  I feel the relief of serenity daily yet it is a false sense of serene existence as the eye of the storm briefly passes over me then I'm sucked into the wash of the twister once more to be abrasively sandblasted clean.  Seems God wants me to start completely fresh and new now that I've dumped out those truckloads of issues.  I had mentioned in my last post.
I've been literally swept clean by pristine white quartz sand at the St. Anthony Sand Dunes in Idaho.  I'm not complaining at all, quite the contrary.  There's something SensUaL about fluid movement afforded through dance, water and RAIN.  The sand in all its solidity is no less fluid than an ocean with its white caped ridges, gentle ripples, and rolling waves.  It beckons you to dive in and swim yet there is no refreshing water save for the sweat that beads upon your skin.  The hot sun kissed hills of these white sand dunes are no less SensUaL or cleansing than a bath in the salty ocean.
Don't know what I mean? 
The next time you fill a tub to take a bath, stand under a rain shower, or go swimming note the way the water plays upon you, its fluid movement like fire is mesmerizing in that it has a life of its own.  It is pleasing to the soul and inviting to the dreamer in all of us.
I liken these dunes to a playground made of sand.  There are no concrete surfaces, woodchips, jungle gyms or other customary items at this playground.   You must use your imagination when playing in this sandbox, I longed to roll across, slide down, surf the waves and skim the ridges of my newfound sandbox. 
I wanted so badly to strip to my bikini and lay in the sun but I was with my son, my Ty, Ty's brother Brian and Marco from Holland.  I didn't think it would be appropriate given the male to female ratio.  Had there been a Big Blue Ocean on the other side of one of those ridges though there'd of been no stopping me!
As it was there was a small pond, some would call it a lake, that we stopped at where I got to go barefoot in the sand and wade out in the shallow waters.  It was a tease in the heat of the day to not have a suit to go swimming.  Again it would have been inappropriate to strip down to my skivvies given the company I was with and my son and Ty both would have been disappointed in me to say the least had I indulged my desire to dive in.  It was so hot I actually thought about diving in fully clothed.
Because we were on ATV's with hot exhausts it was necessary to wear long pants.  This added to the already hot desert heat of the midday sun.  We rode until we became bored or found a great curl then stopped to take video footage.  This became a routine and most of it is of Tyler and Spencer mobbing the sand dunes and jumping the ridges on their Motorcycles which were much more maneuverable than the bulky ATV's.  I have one of me doing a baby wheelie as I gave the last bit of throttle to the DS650 making it rear up as I crested the top of a long steep tsunami.  That was nothing compared to the 12 feet of air Spence and Ty would get as they sailed across the dunes.  With the bikes, they could surf those big ones sideways so long as they kept their speed up; they looked like surfers on those 50-foot swells in Hawaii.  The blue skys above felt like the ocean turned upside down and gave plenty of photo ops.
The winds of change were prevalent the entire time we were there and our first night 8/8/08 a magnificent Thunder and Lightening show danced across the terrain.  There was sheet lightening and violent slashes of narrow neon streaks that cut through the blackened darkness of night.  It was AWESOME!

We met a few colorful characters along our trek to the dunes.
A man named Wal-E...well his name was Wallie but we all remembered it because of the recent movie by the same name about the robot.  You would have to see it to understand.  Anyway, Wal-E looked like a character you would find in the older movies Mad Max or Thunder Dome, come to think of it, maybe even out of Water World.
Wal-E was definitely a nice Guy!  He was slight of stature and obviously a man who had seen most of his life in the sun.  He had white hair, a dune buggy/sand rail he had made himself that was quite colorful in its own right, an old sage green sock around his water bottle for insulation and that ever-versitle silver duck tape wrapped around the sides of his glasses to form his very own home made set of goggles.  We met up with him somewhere out on the sand dunes during one of our stop and fix the Raptor (atv) rests.  He was helpful and alone so it was a win win situation when he asked if he could travel along with us incase anything happened to his ride so that we could assist him.
Wal-E was no less at home in the dunes than an experienced surfer is on their board when the "surfs up."  During one stop for a water break from our camel packs, I got a bit of footage of this interesting man but the camera didn't function right so I didn't get the one I really wanted which was of Wal-E taking off his cap to reveal a closer inspection of his "goggles."  Not only did he have tape on the sides but also across the top just like any pair of "Good" goggles his were suctioned to his head or should I say TAPED.
gOTTa smile at that one!
That's the same stop I noticed his sock insulated water bottle, HonestLY who wouldn't love a man in his 60's, 70's with that kind of ingenuity?   Couldn't help but be proud to have met him.  Our only regret was when we went back to find him at his campsite he'd already left so getting his contact info to invite him along the next time we find ourselves headed to the dunes isn't gonna happen.  We'll keep our eyes and ears open to his where abouts though and if we do cross paths again you can bet we'll get that info first thing. 

The second night there Tyler and I went out for a midnight ride on the dunes.  I manifested my fantasy and felt that cooling sand like the soothing sea against my skin while bathing under a school of stars that swam above me in the vast ocean of the universe.
Sexual, Sensual, Sweet...a moment in the eye of the storm.

On our return home we stopped at the Rexburg Outdoor Sports Center where Spencer dreamed of a new ride and Tyler actually tried to attain a new Hybusa rocket.
I guess the dunes did bring out the dreamer in all of us. 
We made another stop in Ledor at our friends home who are considered like family where another colorful character (Darvey) was introduced to me.  I captured him on video as well while he recited a famous poem by heart...to sleep per chance to dream.  There's the dreamer again.
He ought to be in movies with his voice, stature, and candid character.  Interesting man and a warm comforting smile.
We didn't make it out of there without three boxes of food (rations) as only family/friends that close and caring will do.  Their only qualm was that we hadn't stopped by on our way to the dunes.
Our hour visit nearly turned into an all nighter.   Janet showed us her garden and green house full of healthy looking plants and Steve gave us a jar each of plum and nectarine jam.  My response when I tasted them was, "oh my God" they tasted like fresh fruit complete with chunks...yum!
While we were there Tyler got to shoot Darvey's old pirates single shot twice which I also got on video, I didn't know they actually throw a flash of flame as the powder ignites and leaves the barrel.  It was kinda kool. 

I haven't had much time to write since I got back, life in the real world took hold of me, grabbed me by the ankles and spun me around.
I had one moment of escape when Ty and I stopped by Napolitani's in Hamilton for lunch and to visit Erica my friend and owner of the restaurant.  She wasn't open yet but we talked and decided to go back for an early dinner; Erica's home made garlic bread in a an herb dipping sauce, calamari, dinner salad, crab ravioli in a creamy roasted red pepper sauce and a good bottle of red wine.  Escape from reality accomplished again in the "eye of the storm."

I type this at 2:21AM to the sound of what appears to be the Pacific Ocean waves laping at the shore but it is only the wind blowing through the mountain treetops outside my home.  The wind half whistles and half howls as it whisks through the windows I've left cracked open in a feeble effort to cool down my "tree house" aka guesthouse.  The storm rages on around me but I've managed the last few days to pace myself so that I'm able to reside at peace and with serenity in the eye for a time.
I miss my oldest son he is in a storm of his own or perhaps he is the storm.  He is bold and beautiful.  He's traveling in an attempt to find himself with a new love and a new life.  My concern is where he lye's, not only his precious head but also his subtle and emotional bodies.  I pray the eye of this storm finds him at peace and landed on solid ground. 
My other two boys are well, I take solice in that.  Time spent laughing, playing, talking, and hugging them is time well spent away from work.  It is the Reality I Enjoy the most...like the other day when it was still 94 degrees at 6:00PM so I, they and a group of others went down to a favorite spot to swim in the Bitterroot River.
Tucker and Toby floated down the current on a log they used for a raft then Spencer joined them.
Tyler and Ryan climbed up the partially dismantled historic old "Silver Bridge" and walked across the top to the other side.  I got that on video too, something that wont be able to happen again now that its been replaced with the new cement monolithic bridge necessary for the four lane highway.  In some ways its sad to see the old go but the new is already lined with swallows nests and provides an expanse of shade that is welcome on these "dog days of summer"....another "eye of the storm" momment.

I've chosen to leave out the damage that the storm has left in its wake, it's nothing I cannot repair but there is damage none-the-less.  I've knocked a few people out with my flailing arms and legs as the storm spun me around and I'll have to repair those relationships over time.  I've neglected a few priorities due to the dizzying affect it has had on my psyche but I'll manage to catch up, again, over time.  If you're someone I neglected or knocked out I appologize publicly but for now, I will live my life according to one of my mottos:
"Life is what you make of it, make it GOOD!"
I'm going to sleep now
per chance to dream
of good things
to come.
;-) Rain

August 8th - 11th was spent at St. Anthony Sand Dunes riding ATV's and Motorcycles across endless seas of white quartz sand.  Being born and raised three blocks from the ocean, I kept expecting to see the vast Pacific just over the crest of each hill but alas, there are no oceans in Idaho.  This big kids "sandbox" has plenty of room for all your friends and their friends too.  It boasts 35 miles x 5 miles of beautiful pristine sand that are swept clean of all tracks on pretty close to an hourly basis.  Hot, you bet!  Not just in temperature, I'm talking about hot as in there's something sensual about white sand dunes that only can be beat by white sand dunes with barely clad  people bathing in the beautiful waters that usually are near by.  Blue-sky lines meet white sands and all I can say is I can't wait to go back. 

August 12th - was spent recuperating from the heat of the dunes and cleaning off all the sand that came home on us. 

August 13th - kept me busy trying to get food for the house and having a romantic diner at Napolitani's with Mi Tai (My Ty) accompanied by a nice bottle of red.  Their crab raviolis are to die for.

August 14th - Was intended for a back to the "grind stone" workday but life got in the way and I won't offer my services to clients when I'm ShOvEd into a funk. 

August 15th - Once again the intention of work but the funk from the previous day's interactions had me deeply imbedded into sadness and loss.  Kind of a twister affect that left me concerned for my immediate family and me.  I attempted to log on for my clients later in the evening but as God would have it no calls came.  I've learned that unless I'm able and ready to hear/see/touch/taste/smell and feel the messages that I'm given to relay to my clients God will not allow the clients to come forward. 

August 16th - was much better and I actually reconnected with some of my clients that had been missing me.  Still it was only a handful that were in immediate need of speaking with me that were allowed through the looking glass for me to read the sands of time.

August 17th - I started to work on a video of how-to things that I'm going to be posting on a pay-per-view basis to several of my web addresses.   It's something I've wanted to delve into for about 5 years now and never had the time.  The heat of the day sent my boys, my friends and me down to a favorite swimming hole at the river. 

August 18th - finds me working.

 

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This will be my first ever attempt at online public journaling
It's hot, it's muggy, and I'm a bit bored.  Currently I'm reviewing my options or maybe I ought to say I'm creating my options.  Survivor is something I want to apply for, I'm different enough from the regular joe and been through enough to be interesting.  I'm the strongest person most people say they know.  We'll all find out when I get casted.  I'll have to wait to apply until next year though because the deadline for this year was July 15.  I'm also looking into Amazing Race I've got a friend who wants to go on it with me, if we get cast hopefully we won't kill each other in the process.  My goal obviously is the cash and prizes!!! 
I could use them. 
I have two companies and one is in a sort of holding pattern due to the recent produce scares and recalls.  Montana Mommas Company DBA Montana Mommas and I'm producing my friends recipe for a Hot-n-Spicy Fresh refrigerated Salsa.  It's Hot N It's Spicy and It's "soon to be the worlds MOst LOVED Salsa".  There's a lot of interest and a few stores carrying it right now.  Breaking into the Food Industry is not for the faint of heart or those who don't have stick-too-it-iveness!  Fortunately I do.
My other company is doing well and I've only just begun to rebuild my clientel after 4 years sabatical.  I kept having major "life gets in the way" obstacles each time I started business again.  This time around the "life gets in the way" issues CAN'T, I won't let anything else stop me because it's this and the Salsa or my kids and I don't eat. 
When Chris (my husband) decided to leave (die) he left a lot of extra S*!t to take care of.  Emotional, financial, physical and other.  I jokingly told people who wanted to get too close to me that they didn't want to know me, "I've got issues, I got baggage...no seriously I've got Truck loads.  Most people have wheel barrows but I've got Truck loads!"  I laughed, I cried, I got on bye.
In the last 19months I've healed a lot and so have my boys.  I realized those trucks were dump trucks so I've dumped all the S*!t out and used it as fertalized soil where I've already manifested plants that have grown and are bearing GOOD n taSTY new fruits.  I started almost as soon as he passed but didn't realize it till around 7 months out and I dumped the last load out on July 31st of this year.  There are plenty more seeds I've planted that have yet to sprout.  I'm no longer saying I've got issues, I let them go and let them grow my/our (my boys and I) new beginings. 
I am a True Survivor!
I'm Back, Bold, Beautiful and like Sophia....
I was born SeXY!
Look out WORLD...It's a new day, it's a new dawn and I'm
Feel'n GooD
;-)