Hello and Happy Holidays!
While I wasn't planning on sharing this, my Spirit guides have been talking with me often about all of this over the past week. My job is to share what I get so...
What a wild holiday it has been. Just when life seemed to be going swimmingly, *BAM* a surprise...
There were lots of phone calls with family regarding the loss of my grandma on Sunday night. (My mom's mom.) Now, my mom has been gone for several years but thankfully, still speaks with me on an almost daily basis.
I am doing fine. I'm glad they're both with each other again and sharing time with my great grandmother. It's what they always wanted.
A few years back, my mom's mom asked if there were any messages (she didn't believe in my gift even though my grandpa, great gram, and mom had it) and I told her that they were tying up their black lace boots waiting to dance with her again. I found out that those were the boots that my great gram wore while she was here. I had never know her or seen a picture of her but I have seen her in visions before.
This was a turning point for my gram. I asked her why she would ask, if she didn't believe. She didn't answer but I could see in her eyes that she wanted to believe.
My great gram died right before Christmas the year I was born. My mom at Thanksgiving. My grandpa (mom's dad) the day after Christmas just 3 years ago. Each family has a certain time period where relatives go; like a cycle. Years may pass but the timing is similar.
I'm not sad or upset about this. :) Knowing where we go and the amount of people I've been blessed with speaking with as the years have gone on make it easy for me to see that missing them is a feeling sorry time for me. I can't do that to them. It ties them here which staginates their growth up there. Letting go is the true sign of love.
When my mom died at age 45, the structure of our family changed dramatically. Relatives I had had in my life for my whole life changed. They allowed fear to rule their actions. They pulled away. (I look, speak, and have mannerisms exactly like my mom had. I am her daughter and am blessed to have had such a lovely mother for the time I did. I could see that speaking with me was difficult for them.) I accepted that pull with the understanding that when the time was right, foregiveness would be my course of action. The bitterness of being abandoned would be replaced by a freeing in my soul that I was not the one with the issue; but that they were.
This holiday season was planned as peaceful and on the outside, may look sad and tear-filled. However, the saying of "When God closes one door, he opens a window" is true if you are willing to open yourself up to the possibilities.
I was given the opportunity to crack open that window this past summer with my marriage. While my husband and I had a very private and personal ceremony, I sent announcements to relatives on my mother's side. I didn't have addresses, or phone numbers, but I worked with the ones I did have and put "In Care Of" to family that I knew would see each other.
What a difference... When I went to the wake, I thought, "Well, they probably don't want to speak with me at this point. I'll only go to the first viewing and I won't stay long." After all, I was going out of respect for my grand-mother, my mother, and myself. (Don't kid yourself. These moments are for you also.)
When I opened myself up to possibilities, I found that other family memebers had their windows open also. :)
I explained that I had no phone numbers or addresses. I didn't know how to get a hold of anyone because I didn't speak to anyone. I was out of the circle. When I left the funeral home, I had reconnected with my family. I had all of those phone numbers and addresses that had been kept so secret for such a long time. I even had e-mail addresses! My uncle made a point of telling everyone there that the past is in the past and now is the time to rebuild what our family had over 25 years ago. I attended the second viewing, all three parts of the service and our family talked at lunch for hours.
Why share? I think it's important to understand that we are all here for a purpose and while that purpose isn't always clear to us, we are loved and cared for, even in death, and even when it seems as if Spirit isn't giving us what we want, when we want it, we will be blessed. Staying on our true paths and being true to ourselves is important, as difficult as that sometimes is.
If we are not open to the possibilities and situations that are given to us, it is our fault when we find ourselves alone, in despair, and lonely. We have to be willing to conquer our own fears with the understanding that sometimes the hardest things are to forgive and move foreward. We need to see, and feel, and be patient with ourselves and those around us. Say what you mean. Mean what you say. But understand you don't have to say things mean. I'm not saying that every realtionship can be repaired, but if you slam doors shut or refuse to try something new because you are afraid or don't want to be bothered, then will things truly change or will time just pass you by?
My mom would tell me all the time that she would rather live than just exist. I'd rather live too.
Yes, I have used several of those phone numbers already. Just to call for a few minutes and say I enjoyed talking with you today. What a difference in the holiday season a few minute phone calls have made...
Thank you, Spirit.
My thoughts and prayers are with you today.
Wishing you the Merriest of days!
In Love & Light,
annie :)