I finally watched Eat, Pray, Love last night (yes, i know, i am the
last person to do this, and no, i have not read the book either.) I was
afraid that it was going to be a cheesy romantic love story that mocks
true spiritual enlightenment. Boy was I wrong -thankfully!!! I loved
every aspect of this story and this woman’s life. I found unusual
parallelism between her story and my own life story. My favorite line
in the movie was when she said “Through the teachings here, i have
learned that it all circulates around one truth: God is in me, and God
expresses himself THROUGH me!” What a simple yet important truth! A
truth, that, if truly realized, would instantaneously bring us
happiness, Bliss, success and Love and complete enlightenment!
I was still pondering this movie line while I was going for my daily
run this morning. Lately i have noticed a block in my third chakra, my
Power center. This is, of course, because i have been struggling with
my own TRUTH as a POWERFUL, Divine be-ing. So i asked God to help me
surrender all the obstacles that have been keeping me from remembering
that i came here to be a POWERFUL being, not to struggle or play victim
to the challenging ways of the world. God responded to me as I ran this
morning. I seem to have some of my best conversations with God when i
am running.
I could hear and FEEL the voice of God say to me “Take a look around
you. Take a ‘conscious’ look at all that you see. You will see me in
everything, everywhere, at the same time” And so i did. I looked,
consciously, at my surroundings. Immediately, my heart chakra opened up
and everything seemed so much Brighter, colorful and vibrant! Tears
of Gratitude welled up in my eyes when I looked at the bush as i ran by
it, and heard it whisper “I am God, and God is expressing himself
through me” I looked at the mud puddle and heard it giggle “I am God
and God expresses himself through me” How much unconditional Love i
felt for these beautiful expressions of God! I was suddenly overwhelmed
with Divine LOVE, Gratitude and pure BLISS.
Ahhh, but it is so easy to see God in nature – and i found myself
admiring the flower and the bird bathing as i ran by; each of them
reminding me that they were God and God was expressing him/herself
through them. But then i passed a garbage truck picking up trash, I
chuckled and thought ‘well THAT is not God.’ But i was quickly
corrected, as i heard the truck respond “YES, I AM!! I AM God, and God
expresses himself through me!” How? I heard Spirit respond ‘Look
beyond what you think you know of something. Look at the perfection of
the design, the structure, the function – it was created by man -and
that creative, imaginative mind of man is ME, expressing myself through
him, therefore, I created this vehicle and the Garbage truck is a
reflection..an EXPRESSION of me! See me in the truck. Honor the truck.
Love the truck, for when you do- you are loving ME- and yourself -for I
am in YOU as well.’ So i ran a little more, and now i was experiencing
God in everything. I saw the broken fence and heard it say “I’m not
broken, I am PERFECT. SEE me as more than that which is on the
surface.” So i admired the beautiful, geometric shape the broken wooden
pickets made and said “You are GOD, and God is expressing himself
through you. I Love you, and i honor God within you” And then it hit
me.
How easy this is -to experience GOD in everything! All i have to do
is look beyond the surface – look beyond the Illusion that says it is
anything ELSE, other than God. A broken fence, a mud puddle, a bum on
the street, a cigarette butt on the ground - “There is NO place in
which you will NOT find me” God was telling me over and over- and i
finally understood this concept. BUT….. there was more to it than i
would acknowledge at this moment.
God continued ‘If I am in present in all of these objects, these
experiences, regardless of how they appear, regardless of what you, or
what others think of them- if I am there- and they are PERFECT
reflections of ME -then what does that say about YOU?’ Aahhh, i cringed
as this TRUTH as a little too much for me to bare. Though i knew what
Spirit was about to say, i had been stepping away from believing this
for quite some time lately and my Ego was resisting the Growth
opportunity i was being offered. But God continued “You asked for a
reminder, so here it is! YOU, my sweet child, are ME, and I am
expressing myself through you! Please ALLOW me to continue to do so.
You need not do anything, accomplish anything, or become anything- i am
here, within you- and it is through your mere existence that I express
myself through you! Please know, everytime you take a breath, i am
expressing myself through you. All you have to do to FEEL me and
experience me, is look beyond your own Illusions. Just like the broken
wooden fence, or the garbage truck- change your perspective, and all
else will change too. Refuse to see yourself as broken, wounded,
unworthy, mediocre, ugly, fat, sad, broke, unsuccessful, jealous,
fearful and all these other ‘limiting’ versions of yourself that you
seem to claim as your TRUTH from moment to moment. That is NOT who you
are – I…. am who you are!! SEE me in yourself. Know I am here, within
you. I am in your every cell, molecule, heartbeat. Know I have always
been here. I am not just a part of you -i AM you! There is no
separation. All the love you felt when you recognized me in everything
else – the bush, the bird, the flower, the cigarette butt – FEEL that
Love now- feel it for yourself -for just as they are all PERFECT
reflections of me- so are YOU!”
Yes, i knew this -yet did I? Why wasn’t I claiming this Greatness in
very moment? Why wasn’t I claiming it in EVERY moment? Why was I
feeling so powerless lately? How could I? When i marveled at my own
magnificence, MY Beauty, there was no doubt - I AM God. It was so
simple. I took a look at myself and heard God say ‘I am Within you. I
am expressing myself through you. Right now. Say it. Repeat it back
to yourself.’ So there I was, running down the street as i began to say
out loud, through heavy breathing, sweat dripping down my entire body…
“I am God, and God is expressing himself through me.” Oh, my eyes
welled up with tears again and my heart filled with warm, Divine Love
that was unparalleled to anything I have ever felt. I continued,
repeating it even louder “I am God!!!! And God is expressing himself
through me!!!!! RIGHT NOW!!!!” I felt more alive then ever and my
entire body began to tingle all over. ‘Again, say it again my child…’
So i did and this time the words were not coming from me but from within
me “I am the Alpha and the Omega!! I am the Sun and the Moon!! I am
Omniscient, Omnipotent and Omnipresent!!! I am GOD!!!!! Whoo
Hooooo!!!! I am GOD!!!!!” I was half screaming it, and half crying it-
as this realization- when it is grasped as an experience, instead of a
concept- takes over one’s entire Being!!!! I was completely unaware of
my surroundings or the pain that I ‘should have’ been feeling by now as i
was running harder and faster than ever. I felt like I was in my body
but above it at the same time. It was not ME running- not the old,
limited version of myself that i thought I was -this was GOD running
-and I can only imagine the speed I was traveling at! Yet i felt
nothing- no fatigue, no breathlessness (i must admit I was only on my
second week returning to running, so It was not uncommon for me to get
out of breath after the first mile.) I remember thinking ‘What if all
athletes connected at this level- came back to their TRUTH as God WHILE
they were competing?’ I giggled as I thought of all the world records
that would be broken time after time. Oh what we are capable of doing
when we release our limitations. But I will save this concept for
another Blog.
God was not done giving me the reminder I had asked for. I looked
around me, weeping at the precious realization that I was indeed God,
and not just a part of God. I saw a pile of dirt, and I felt the pure
love for it as I said “You are God too, and God is expressing himself
through you. You are God’s Creation, and I love you just as I love the
Divine Creator, for you are a part of it” I then heard God say to me
-change your wording. Repeat it, but replace the word ‘God’ with ‘I.’
AI was a little confused, but I obeyed anyhow (I have learned not to
argue with God.) and I found myself looking at a car on the street and
saying “I am you, and I am expressing myself through you!” I came to an
abrupt stop. Ohhhh, ohhhh, ohhhhh -something took over me.!!
Something changed in me -instantaneously. I didn’t know what happened
at that moment- but i felt something else- something I had never felt
before. So I repeated my words, this time looking at a dog in someone’s
yard “I am YOU, and I am expressing myself through you” I couldn’t
move. Even at this moment, as I write this, I find it difficult to
explain what I felt come over me. To say it was unconditional Love
would be an understatement -to say it was a realization or an
actualization would not do it justice. Regardless.. I got it. I got
why Spirit had asked me to reword my statement. As i repeated ‘I am
you. I am expressing myself through you.’ I made a connection unlike
what I was feeling just a moment before. I could feel God saying
“That’s right. YOU are this. YOU created this, not just me – YOU.”
And i did not need any further explanation. I could feel it, in the
depths of my Soul, in my body, in my cells – at every level -i finally
understood this TRUTH. I AM God/Spirit! I was, for the first time
-seeing everything through God’s eyes- and not just ‘my own.’ In other
words -once I realized that I AM God -i dropped the ‘I’ and it became a
‘We.’ I was so connected and MERGED with Spirit that I was now
witnessing life, for the first time ever, through my REAL self – WITHOUT
my veil of Illusion. I was witnessing life through my GOD eyes. It’s
like someone just lifted this veil up off my eyes and I was looking out
into the world for the first time -and truly SEEING! ‘All of this…all of
this beauty…YOU did it. You created it- and it is as much a part of
YOU as it is a part of me. WE did it together. You have always been a
part of me, and you always will” With this realization, I felt a
different kind of LOVE for all things. The only thing I can compare it
to is the love I feel for my children. When i look at my children, no
matter what they are doing or even how they are behaving- i feel
complete unconditional love for them- so much that it often takes my
breath away. I also feel some sense of pride, some sense of ‘myself’
through them. When I see them, I see myself- for I realize that I
helped create them and that there is a part of me IN them. This is the
beauty of Cocreation -of ANYthing, not just one’s offspring. When we
create something, whether it is a life, a piece of art, a song or even
write an article – several things happen. First, whether we realize it
or not, when we create something- we are not creating it alone- we are
doing it WITH God- that is why it is called COcreation. The Divine
Spirit is flowing through us, expressing him/herself THROUGH us. The
very act of creation is Divine in itself. We are CREATIVE Be-ings, so
to CREATE is to express GOD, or should I say ‘To allow God to express
himself through us.’ Second, when we Create something, we become a part
of it – no matter what. If we created it, we are in it- and therefore,
so is God. The difference is that we have a difficult time accepting
this Truth in fullness. We can acknowledge that God is in us, that God
is in our children, in nature -but we still feel a separateness. Our
Ego mind often wants us to believe God is in us, but we are just a
‘small part’ of the Divine Creator. We feel okay saying God is in
everything WE create, but we wouldn’t dare take credit for anything
that God has created. But here i was, running, surrounded by Divine
Creation everywhere -the animal, the tree, the skateboard- and Spirit
was asking me to take ownership of it. It was only after I had obeyed
and said the word “I”, that i realized just how powerful this statement
was. For a moment, my Ego tried to knock me down. ‘YOU didn’t create
this, GOD did’ I could hear my lower self try to tell me. I almost felt
guilty for saying that I did. For if I acknowledge that “I” am in it,
and that “I” am expressing MYSELF through it, then I am essentially
saying that “I” created it. This frightened me, but i quickly heard God
say “YES!!!! Yes,Yes YOU did! Don’t you get it? We are NOT separate, I
AM You, you ARE me -it’s just that your human mind won’t let you
believe you could possibly be this magnificent, this powerful, this
beautiful, this CREATIVE. If you could drop the illusion that we are
two separate Be-ings, you would have grasped this long ago -and you HAVE
-from the other side, in other lifetimes, and even when you were young-
before you fell asleep. At this moment, It is in your ‘comfort zone’
to believe that we are separate. You got conditioned to believing
everything everyones told you about who you really are. This is why you
feel guilty. It is also why you have been playing so small, why you
haven’t manifested what you want, and why you keep playing victim to
every circumstance. You did not come here to be this person….. you came
here…. to be ME! Now drop your illusions and KNOW that I am in you and
express myself through you at ALL times. And, this would be alot
easier if you would be willing to accept that we are ONE and that
everything that is a part of me is a part of you. Everything that I
have created, so have you!”
I took a look around and thought ‘Okay God, i am done denying that we
are One. I am done ‘forgetting the most important Truth of all. I
shall do whatever it takes to live each moment from this truth.’ I
realized that there were indeed many times in my life when I DID Feel my
oneness with God, where I did Feel the Power of the Divine running
through my own veins. However, there were far too many times when I did
not. How do I shift this? I wondered. God answered ‘Your thoughts,
actions and words represent the person you THINK you are. You must
begin there. Take a deep look – who are you showing up as? What are
your thoughts, words and actions saying you are? Whatever the answer is
-YOU are believing it. And your life is a reflection of it. Take a
close look at what you are thinking, what you are spacing about, and
how you behave- towards others and towards yourself. In public, and
deep within your mind. If you wish to Remember and LVE by to your truth
as a Divine Being permenately -you must become conscious of everything
you think, say and do. Everytime you play small, feel fear, stay in
your comfort zone, talk down to someone, or even just withhold love,
you moving AWAY from remembering your Truth. You are causing yourself
to ‘forget’ that you are GOD. This is an Illusion, of course, because
you can never NOT be me -we are inseparable. BUT, you can easily
forget. Eventually, your subconscious mind takes over and you begin to
think that all these human “thoughts’ and ‘actions’ are actually WHO
you are. The result? You LIMIT yourself, and your experiences. Yes, I
am still here- no matter what, I am within you. You ARE GOD -always
and in all ways. The only difference is whether you want to acknowledge
it or not.’
Once i chose to view the world through God’s eyes, which were MY
eyes- i came to a beautiful state of Bliss. My entire Soul was
overwhelmed with a conscious LOVE and BLISS that I had never felt
before. “I am in you, and I am expressing myself through you” Such a
simple statement, yet everytime I said this, I felt the purest form of
Love for ALL things- like that of a mother for her child. I now
understood why and how it was possible for the Divine creator to Love
everything and everyone unconditionally- because it/he/she was not only
seeing himself in it, but EXPERIENCING himself through all things,
regardless of how others viewed it. ‘Yes, that is correct my child, i
do not see a murderer, i see ME. I do not see a landfill, i see ME. I
do not see a liar, or a thief, or a cancerous tumor, I see ME. And
since i know that i am PERFECT, i am able to see nothing but PERFECTION
in all of these things. And since i know i am nothing but LOVE, i feel
nothing but LOVE for these things. They are all a part of my Creation,
and I love and Honor each of them equally. They, just like you, are
complete reflections of me’ When i repeated “I” instead of “God” I,
too, felt this Divine Love for everything! I could see the same
Perfection in all of these things. I, too, could see myself through
these things- and immediately recognized them as perfect reflections of
myself. In doing so, i was forced to recognize myself as Perfect as
well. All I did was choose to MERGE with God and leave behind my own
illusion that we were separate. Interestingly enough… the greatest
gift in my lesson was in what i experienced next.
God whispered ‘Now that you have seen this world through my/our
eyes…i want you to EXPERIENCE this world through ‘our’ eyes’ I looked
around as I continued running down the street, at the beautiful world
around me and heard myself saying “look at this! I did this! I created
this!! Look at how powerful I am!” I looked up at the tree and said,
out loud “I created you- in all your perfection- I created you my
child!” I continued looking around and calling out to everything i saw
“I created you …and you… and you… and you! Oh how beautiful you all are
my precious children, and I did this!” Never in my life had I felt
more powerful! I realized that i truly was God, therefore the Creative
Power that existed within God was MINE! “YES, now you get it!!! Look
at what we have created. The very same power that suspends planets in
the Solar System and created life itself – is YOUR power!! Now ask
yourself – If you have created all of these Divine things -WHY, now,
would you choose to live such a limited life?’ Wow, Wow, Wow,
Wow. These words hit me hard. As I gazed up at the Sun in the sky- i
could FEEL my Power. I also could FEEL that I was not just looking at
the Sun, I WAS the Sun! Just like there is no separation between myself
and God, because God created me -so was the same with me and the Sun. I
created this Sun, threfore I can not be separate from it. I realized
that I was EXPERIENCING myself THROUGH the Sun, AS the Sun. Once again,
i became enveloped with a sensation that drew me out of my body -and up
into the Cosmos. Once i realized that I not only created the Sun, but
that I WAS the Sun- i merged with it. ‘Look at me, look at my beauty.
Look at my power’ I found myself saying to the world. I am SUN. I was
so engrossed by my ‘merging’ with the Sun, that I was actually looking t
the world from above. I could see mother Earth, and all of her
inhabitants as swirling mass of energies, each of them vibrating
separately but together. At this moment, I felt so ‘large’, so
powerful, so important -i forgot completely that i was in my human
body. Yes, allow yourself to EXPAND. You are not bound by this human
body, or this human mind that you are just visiting for a short time.
YOU are limitless, and, just like the Sun -powerful, bright and capable
of spreading LIGHT across the world. That is the main reason you came
here -to spread LIGHT into the world.’ I could fEEL my Light -it was
brighter and more beautiful than anything I had ever experienced. I
realized that this was the first time I had ever allowed myself to BE
this magnificent. I was feeling so euphoric, so high, so….. ‘DIVINE?”
God inserted. Ys, that is exactly what I was feeling- Divine. I said
‘I don’t want to come back down . I don’t want to go back to my human
body. I want to stay here, in the cosmos. I want this feeling to stay
with me forever” ’God responded “Then chose it. This is your natural
state of Being. Exactly what you are feeling- you arrived here no
through some great epiphany. You arrived here because you were willing
to lift your veil of Illusion. So, I ask you, why put the veil back
on?’
I began weeping again the sweetest tears I have ever wept. I finally
came back to my physical body and realized I had run farther and harder
than i had since I ran Cross Country in high school. I was breathing
heavily, but felt no pain, no fatigue. Tears and sweat were dripping
down my face ad body. I felt high. I was. “You don’t have to come back
down. You can stay here. Walk through your human life ‘High’ – for
you belong up here, not down below. The choice is yours.’ A minute
later a man, was doing yard work came over and said “Ma’am are you
okay?” obviously noticing my weeping. “Yes” I said “I am more than
okay. I am PERFECT” And I actually meant it this time.
It is my desire and intention that each of my Brothers and Sisters
come back to their TRUTH as GOD. I know, without a doubt, it is part
of path to help guide them there. I bowed my head in silence and
whispered “Thy will be my Will.”
This was sent to me via Facebook , not sure who wrote it