The path I follow.....

Foundations

faithinlove — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 17:34:00 GMT

Foundations

Today
I looked a little closer
Closer than I had in for a while
With looking
Looking within
Looking at us
Looking at him
Looking at me
Just looking
With looking came
Realization
The pain is still there
Even with all the progress
I still know
We are not at the same place
This is the pain
This knowledge
That I whole heartedly commit myself
And all that I am
To the sacredness of "us"
And yet.....
I know this man loves me
But his heart
His heart stands
Without conviction
Without commitment
Without the sacredness of "us"
How does.....?
How can.......?
Why would......?
Anyone love....
Without conviction, commitment
Without reverence
To and for
The sacred "US"?
To me.....
I smile as I think
I smile even as I cry
And yet I smile
As I write these thoughts.....
This knowledge
So integral
To who and what I am
I am love
I serve love
I serve my Father
Just as I am
I wish only
To share
To be
All God gave me to be
Service is an honor
Service is my homage
To my maker, myself & my love
I do not understand
This doubt
It pains me
To stand alone
While we are "together"
I know
My Father supports me
My Father sooths me
He gives me strength
To make this stand
I know
I stand on Faith
I stand on and in
Conviction
Commitment
Reverence
To give
The one I love
A firm hold
An anchor in his storm
Within his mind
Within his life
Chaos
Evil
Hate
Have taken their toll
Upon his heart
Upon his mind
But mostly upon his soul
I offer forever
But many liars offered this too
So many before me
Spoke in the tongue of evil
Masquerading as love
So I know.....
I know who I am
I know what I am
I know where I stand
I stand here
Now
In unwavering....
Faith
Honor
Love
I am the foundation
Upon which the future is built
So I must
I must stand alone
I must endure
This pain
This knowledge
To give him
To give him the future
A secure and safe place
To wait
To watch
To nurture
As all of him expands
As all of him grows
I stand for....
Healing
Health
Love
I know where I am
I choose to be here
This is my choice
My own free will
To give
So that he may understand
So.....
I must wait
Wait upon him
Wait upon the Lord
I simply must wait
I freely give
I surrender!
I accept!
I do!
I will!
Secure in my knowledge....
I give my life to you
Thank you Father
I am blessed
So once again
You bring me home to you
You bring me home to rest
October 7 2009 11:52 pm

Daily OM - Owning Your Emotions

faithinlove — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 07:34:00 GMT

November 16, 2009
Owning Your Emotions
Name It and Claim It

Our feelings can sometimes present a very challenging aspect of our lives. We experience intense emotions without understanding precisely why and consequently find it difficult to identify the solutions that will soothe our distressed minds and hearts. Yet it is only when we are capable of naming our feelings that we can tame them by finding an appropriate resolution. We retake control of our personal power by becoming courageous enough to articulate, out loud and concisely, the essence of our emotions. Our assuming ownership of the challenges before us in this way empowers us to shift from one emotional state to another—we can let go of pain and upset because we have defined it, examined the effect it had on our lives, and then exerted our authority over it by making it our own. By naming our feelings, we claim the right to divest ourselves of them at will.

As you prepare to acknowledge your feelings aloud, gently remind yourself that being specific is an important part of exercising control. Whatever the nature of your feelings, carefully define the reaction taking place within you. If you are afraid of a situation or intimidated by an individual, try not to mince words while giving voice to your anxiety. The precision with which you express yourself is indicative of your overall willingness to stare your feelings in the face without flinching. Naming and claiming cannot always work in the vacuum of the soul. There may be times in which you will find the release you desire only by admitting your feelings before others. When this is the case, your ability to outline your feelings explicitly can help you ask for the support, aid, or guidance you need without becoming mired in the feelings that led you to make such an admission in the first place.

When you have moved past the apprehension associated with expressing your distressing feelings out loud, you may be surprised to discover that you feel liberated and lightened. This is because the act of making a clear connection between your circumstances and your feelings unravels the mystery that previously kept you from being in complete control of your emotional state. To give voice to your feelings, you must necessarily let them go. In the process, you naturally relax and rediscover your emotional equilibrium.

Check the dailyom.org.... it's full of inspiration. I thought I would just post this one. Thanks.

Balance

faithinlove — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 00:50:00 GMT

Balance

Struggle,

I repeat

To myself

Overcoming…

Struggle

In life

I awoke

In the dark

Questioning myself

How do I overcome?

What does this all

Mean to me?

And then I thought

Struggle

The one word

Arriving

Out of the night

Into my mind

With insight,

I thought of my world

And what does it mean?

How do I overcome?

So many problems,

So much pain,

Struggle

I have always

Had to begin again

I do not know

What I was pondering

In my dreams

This night,

Those memories to fleeting

From my brain

Faded to fast

To be thought again,

But...

The one thing

That remained

A single thought,

A single answer,

I struggle

This is how

I overcome

The root of being

For us all,

We struggle,

We strive,

To overcome

Some win

Some fail

Some see the truth

Our story is written

Between the lines,

If you can listen

If you can learn

To understand

Our wins

Our failures

Are in our own hands

To struggle,

Oh, struggle

Is our life

Our meanings

We pull

From this strife,

Life’s meaning

Lies in this…

What have you learned?

In this strife?

Some learn hatred

Anger

Passion

Some learn love

Care

Compassion

With understanding

Life isn’t about

Physical winning

Or loosing

It’s about understanding

Deeper meanings

I win

When I understand

The deeper meanings

In life’s struggles,

I loose

When I fail

To grasp

Anything below

Life’s surface lessons

We all learn

Not to do

Things that hurt

But how many learn?

That pain has more

To teach than that?

That physical boundaries

Are only the beginning

If I can but learn….

How much more life

I have earned?

In my painful lessons

That I have learned?

To read

Between life’s lines

And remember

This is where

My story is written

Then I learned

To know

My own story

To understand

Life’s other meanings

In strife

In struggle

And all of this

Is part

Of God’s greater plan

It isn’t if

I win

Or loose

It matters what

I actually do

With either

Of these positions

As to if

I really win

Or loose

In life’s plan

I can embrace

Life

In all it’s glory

Both highs and lows

Both joy and sorrow

To understand

Life is not…

A destinations

But a journey

Unto one’s self

Unto one’s God

To know,

To understand,

Yourself

Your life

To hold control

To have

Your own authority

Is part

Of God’s command

To learn

Your own story

To see

Your own role

To own

Your own life

To become

A participant

Not merely a player

You must

Own your life

To do any

To do all

You must understand

That life is struggle

And how to stand

To find your balance

Embrace it all

Seek deeper meaning

In even

Your own falls,

If in deep waters

Become a diver

Is my stand

All life has more meaning

If you can see

It’s colors

And understand

Cliché as it is

You only get out

What you put in

If you choose

Not to see

Then you choose

Life in grey colors

Without deeper shades

That come to me

My life

Has great meaning

To me

I wouldn’t change

A thing

I simply ask

God’s grace

Help me remember

To seek deeper meaning

To understand

Balance

Comes with knowledge

Of my own feelings

And what I do

Within my eternal self

I can find happiness

Only within myself

Within...not without

I find the answer

To every question

I ask

Inside

I find…

Questions,

Answers,

Knowledge,

I conquer the world,

As I learn

To know myself,

Because my happiness

Or misery

Are a reaction

Of understanding

I can change

One

To be the other

With the power

Of thought

Not easily done

Not easily won

Not easy to hold

But still...

Mine for the asking

I merely

Need to see

Myself in the mirror

Of me

To accept

Who I am

To strive to know

More about myself

I gain control

I learn true happiness

That permeates my soul

I am

My own conqueror

I am

My own queen

I decide my life

With my own decree

I seek God

As I know him

In everything

I pray for knowledge

To continue to see

Life’s colors

So graciously gifted

Unto me

Through this knowledge

The fact

I learn balance

By learning

All my life

Has value

To know that

Is enough

To accept

To embrace

To step forward

To live life

By just one day

At a time

Struggle,

In this we find…

Balance

If we learn

To read life

Between the lines

This is my answer

In which

My peace rests

Secure

In the past

Present

And future

I find my balance

Inside of me.

07-07-07 5:00am Notes: I woke up about an hour ago thinking about what does this mean to me (in my dream I was asking myself about some bracelet?). As I awoke… I thought it represents my struggles. I repeated the phrase…struggle, struggle, struggle. And then it hit me….the question became…how do I overcome? I had the answer…struggle…even before the question. I repeated again…struggle, struggle, struggle. I thought to myself in the dark…..this is a poem. I needed to remember it, but knowing thoughts are so fleeting…I got up and turned on the lights. I searched for paper and pencil and began to write. Again as so often lately my writing takes on a life of it’s own as if driven on by something unseen. I did think of one other thing as I arose in the dark…a question…I had asked another…”How did you arrive at your balance?” I don’t know if this poem was a gift of that answer but I choose to believe it is so. I watched only half the movie “One Night With the King” which was the answer from the other to watch the movie for the answer to his balance. I will finish the movie in the morning and see if my answer is the same as the others. I asked about balance of another because I only recently learned the secret to my own.

Walk In The Light

faithinlove — Fri, 04 Sep 2009 04:46:00 GMT

Walk In The Light

Dear heart

Lonely one

You walk in the shadow

Cast by your own mind

Come dear heart

Take my hand

Walk in the light

So beautifully bestowed

Upon us all

Just for the asking

Shed your shadow

Shed your night

The Creator of all

Calls for your hand

Walk with me

Dear heart

Into the light

Into the love

Joy is at hand

I share my life

I share my love

I share the light

I'm here for you

Never far

Accept me

Walk with me

Know all that I am

I surrender

I accept

I do

All that I can

I am yours

Please know that I am

I desire your friendship

Your light

Your love

Please cast off your shadow

So that I can

Allow me

Dear heart

To be all

That I am

Be with me

Be part of me

Melt together

Into the light

The shadow in your mind

Casts doubt

Casts confusion

On all you precieve

I'm here dear heart

Only for you

I wish the same

Joy

Light

Love

That I found

In heaven

I wish to share it

With you

Can you see me?

Can you hear me?

Do you know me?

Dear one

I call you

Only to feel like an echo

And not actually me

I'm lost

Inside the noise

Of your mind

I'm cast about

In the storm

Brewing

And raging

Just out of sight

Just inside you soul

Just inside your heart

It separates

It divides us

Into shadow

And light

I wait my love

I wait for you

I wait in the light

I sink to my knees

I pray to God

I praise to God

All the love

And glory

Given to me

I surrender

I accept

I do

All that is willed me

Just to wait for you

I wait

I wait just for you

In patience

In peace

In love

I give all to you

The light is waiting as well

For you

To cast off your shadow

To cast off your night

To see God's love

With full sight

So dear heart

I wait for you still

I always will

I will be here

Just for you

In light

In love

I surrender

I accept

I really do

September 3 2009

A lesson God was gracious enough to share with me.....

faithinlove — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 06:17:00 GMT

There Is Beauty In The Breaking

A heart so sad

That it cried

Like a soft September rain

Warm

Steady

Weeping

That softly

Oh so slowly

Covered everything

In pain

Broken

Lost

No peace at hand

And God whispers

Went unheard

Every second of the day

He whispered

To the soft September rain

Only to go unheard

Unnoticed

By the broken hearted rain

The day did dawn

That God's messenger

Pain

Told the weeper

There is beauty in the breaking

Look, Look at all the green green grass

Look at all the growth

In all that is green

Fertile ground is found

Where the rain fell

Seeds have sprouted

Leading to growth

Of a beautiful garden

Of flowers who's scent

Had never been smelled

Oh so sweetly melting

Away all thoughts of sorrow

Of those who walked in

God's garden of delight

Rain, it's beautiful

Oh so beautiful

What the sorrow can bring

If you let God's seeds grow

Inside your heart

Rain looked

Astonished at all the beauty

She fell to her knees

And praised the breaking

Pleased with what God had brought

Rain wept once again

Tears

Slipped down her face

As she turned it skyward

“Thank you Father,

For your knowledge so perfect

That I could not see”

“Thank you Father,

For your glory

In my weeping

In the beauty of the breaking”

August 31 2009